It's a growing concern for, all but more specifically, youths that has taken its toll on me. Methods of escapism only evolve and the way we've learned to cope with them is cynicism and denial. I don't want to go down that road, there has to be some appealing and healthy way to deal with this.
I don't want to talk to anyone who hasn't/isn't experiencing what i'm describing. I feel a deep connection is missing and furthermore it is difficult to talk to other non-youths about it. It often seems that those merely viewing the situation hand-wave it away as silly, and even if they are right I don't care to hear it.
Multiple facets of my life are tainted by my obsession with anime and escapism. I cannot enjoy relationships to the point of not desiring them, I can't look at myself and the things I do comfortably, and I have a hard time forming ambition or motivation of any meaningful sort.
I spend hours of my time browsing, saving, and categorizing photos of anime girls. I think constantly about how everything and everyone I know is flawed in some life-lessening way. I can't help but start down a path of resentment and passive death wishes.
I do however know that I find comfort in speaking with those who are in a similar situation. So if there is anyone like this out there, and not someone who just believes they have the answers, please feel free to message me. It would be nice.
