I do not want to wake up in he mornings. I feel a lot of pain in my bones. I feel a lot of pressure on my heart. My hands are always wet. I think that I do not worth anything. Now, I am studying PhD but I always think that this position belongs to someone else, someone more qualified than me. I think I am wasting the money and my supervisors' time and energy. Every morning, I repeat to myself that I hate myself unconsciously. It is getting worse these days. Some times I even think of suicide. I think if I am not here, no one will care and I won't be a pain for the others. I can not focus on my work. I think that I can not do it. I can not make it. I make a lot of mistakes during the work and I should redo one work several times. I do not even talk to the others. I do not go out with my friends. Actually, I do not have a lot of friends. I thought I have but I understood noooo.... they come to me whenever they need a something. The only one that I talk to is my husband. I am also hurting him and I wanna stop it. I wanna help MYSELF but I can not. I can not....
What to do with MYSELF?!: I do not... - Anxiety and Depre...
What to do with MYSELF?!
Have you ever talked to a doctor or therapist about anxiety? I thought and was treated for major depression because of the same type of feeling in the morning didn’t have any interest in anything and didn’t want to get out of bed. I finally said enough with the antidepressants and got a second opinion years later and have been on an extended release low dose benzo and it has made life much better I actually look forward to things and it really helps with situations that I do not want to be at but have to like work lol. And also outbursts are so much more manageable. You need one night a week go out with a couple friends have a drink make a habit do something with your friends you’ll find life a lot easier when annoying things in life happen you can look forward to a a couple beers or whatever a show doesn’t have to be drinking with some friends each week. Things will get better you’re busting your ass getting your PHD congrats that’s awesome I recently got my masters I was so nervous throwing up before every test but it’s over and I can look back and be like wow that was unnecessary and does not help. You’ll get through this! I’m a personal trainer if you want I can write you a 30min w.o. For free you don’t need weights it will help with anxiety in the morning.
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Sorry I am not native in english. What does "w.o" mean?
Sorry Work Out or exercise
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