Inexplicable anxiety attacks

[c-mac]

Once in a while I start obsessing that I'm going to lose my job. Sure, I don't think I'm doing great at it, but I don't think there are any signs that I'm about to be fired. But I take one tiny shred of evidence and turn it into a catastrophe. It happened Monday night and kept me up late into the night. Then that night I had a vivid dream about regret and breaking up with a girlfriend 30 years ago, and by morning I was okay again. Hopefully by writing this I'll more easily see it as an abberation the next time it happens. They used to happen a lot, but then I actually lost a job, and I might be a little more resilient now as a result.