My anxiety is killing me

[makoville]

I am a 23 year old guy who suffers from sever anxiety. I cant talk to people. Whenever I try to talk to someone I start to feel light headed and my lips start to shake as well as my whole body. Its hard for me to smile because when I smile my mouth trembles and it feels so uncomfortable. Im nervous all the time. I dont know what to do anymore. Because of it I cant work, I dropped out of school because I cant have a normal conversation with anyone. I cant do group assignments, I cant do presentations in front of my class or explain anything to anyone. I feel so worthless. Sometimes I consider committing suicide but when I think about it i even feel ashamed to commit suicide because everyone would jut be thinking that I was a worthless good for nothing. I dont know what to do anymore. I cant have a girlfriend. I cry to myself without anyone even knowing. I dont know what else to do, no one understands

[EleanorRose]

Hey makoville,

I really felt for you as I read your post and it was hard to read because I hear how much you are struggling. There are things you said that I can totally relate to on a personal level as well.

I am currently trying (and failing) to fall asleep - it’s 1am here. I really want to write you a proper reply but I am too tired to find the right words at the moment.

For now, I just wanted to tell you that you’re not alone in this and there are people here who understand what you’re going through. I am so glad you are here and have been able to explain how you’re feeling. I will try and write something a bit more helpful when I’ve had some sleep.

Don’t give up hope, this can get better.

Take care,

Eleanor

[Mike7777]

Hey man, if you ever need to talk or let anything out you can message me. Im a little older than you but i know what your going through. Just remember its never to late to make a change in your life. To get professional help. Or to realize every human has potential to do accomplish anything they want. Focus on you. Then the rest will come along.

[bk18]

You did the right thing, getting on here seeking support. No shame in that. Many have had similar circumstances, get counseling and reach out to people here as well. Don’t suffer in silence, we all have one or more issues. It can be hard talking to friends and family, so this is a good start. Don’t give up, there always is hope.

[Unky]

I found the book , At Last a Life by Paul David. He breaks down what anxiety really is & explains how all the symptoms are nothing but simple symptoms that comw with the anxiety.

Once you read how he breaks down anxiety to what it really is, the fears are removed, followed by the anxiety lessening because all those symptoms are explained away & the truth breaks down the fear !!