One of my many stories and lessons.

One night I was lying in my bed crying, and in my state of temporary insanity, I decided to slit my wrists and swallow my entire bottle of prescribed sleeping pills and went to sleep, not expecting to wake up ever again. Thankfully the pills did not work and I woke up with a massive headache instead the next morning, but when my mom came in my room and saw the blood on my arms, she instantly broke down in tears, as did my friends later on when they found out what I’d done. They all screamed at me and questioned why I would do such a thing and I was speechless, because I didn’t know why I did what I did either. I’m glad the pills failed, but life is not always this forgiving, you don’t always get a second chance like I did. So stop thinking you are worthless or ugly or stupid, you are a work in progress and I’m sure you will turn out to be someone that is absolutely amazing and beautiful if you could just try and get through this low point in your life now. Stop thinking that no one will miss you when you are gone, because you will be missed trust me, someone is going to die inside with you the day you let yourself go. So put away the razor, flush down the pills, dry your tears and talk to a friend. And if friends are out of the question then seek professional help. Whatever is happening to you right now is NOT your fault. There are chemical imbalances in your brain prompting you to feel the way you do and you need help so please allow others in to do so because I promise with everything I know that things do get better. Keep fighting friend, I wish the best of luck to you.

[Sprinkle1]

I am glad you wrote about this, it should be a way to heal yourself. Been down that road twice, one at 20 next time at 46, got caught both times!!! I suffer with clinical depression and severe anxiety. I have just taken another trip thru hell, lasted 3 years, in the last year I felt suicidal, but I had made an agreement with myself, "Suicide is not an option". Finally got me on the right med's and I have a wonderful therapist who gives me love, support and encouragement. I have made it to 78 and hope these med's stay working for me. If you ever feel that way again you can call suicide prevention 24/7 at 988. or National Suicide Prevention Life Line at 1-800-273-8255, look in the front of you phone book, there will be a number listed there. I wish you well, send your courage, strength, peace, love n big hugs....Sprinkle 1......If we can be of further help, write to us, we offer support and love......

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Thanks. You're information and influence definitely helps. I'll be sure to contact if I get near that again.

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Hi Forsakenviking98

I have been there, antidepressants saved my life, I can live a normal happy life as long as I take my meds.

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Sprinkle1

Just decided to reach out to you today after reading your post. Since you have made it to 78 any advise you can give or suggestions to myself. I also suffer greatly from anxiety and OCD and since this lockdown have now developed depression. I just started on a medication but don't feel much of an improvement yet.