I’ve been doing so well until now

[HJam5880]

I have been on Sertraline and Buspirone since December, with a dosage increase 3 weeks ago. I have felt so balanced, had weight loss, and tons more energy. However, tonight I’m emotional and missing my dad. He’s been gone for almost 6 years and it still hurts just as bad as the day he passed away. Some days I can talk about it just fine and other days I can’t stop crying for more than 5 minutes at a time. I know it isn’t ever going to stop hurting, but I’m thankful for the great last 3 weeks. It was all I could do to hold myself together while I was at my grandparents house eating lunch for Memorial Day with my family. I was reminded that my dad was missing when we were eating and my cousin wasn’t there with his loud rambunctious self (he’s 18yo) to distract us.

Side note: even though these medications usually cause weight gain, my depression and anxiety are what has caused the original weight gain, so with the medications fixing those problems, I’m losing weight. I’ve also been more active from the increase in energy. If you have read this far, thank you for taking time out of your busy day to care about me.

[HJam5880]

What do you mean?

[HJam5880]

Thank you

[Samieeeee]

Hello,

I recently started buspirone 5 weeks ago with a dose increase one week ago.

It’s okay to have set backs on difficult days. Any type of loss is devastating. Just know good days are to come and the bad ones will not last forever!

[HJam5880 in reply to Samieeeee]

Thank you. I guess sometimes I get so busy that everything is bottled up, and then eventually comes out all at once. I know that probably isn’t the best coping strategy, but it’s really the main one that works for me.

[Samieeeee in reply to HJam5880]

Have you tried journaling everyday? Just get a notebook and write out anything that comes to mind to get the thoughts out of your head? I recently started this and sometimes it helps get it out of your head and then you can see it on paper and see what’s true and what is not. Our minds love to play tricks on us all the time and it can be very very brutal.

[HJam5880]

I’ve tried a bullet journal and keeping up with my daily overall moods, but never really journaled my thoughts. I might try this over this week and see if it helps.

[Samieeeee in reply to HJam5880]

The thing is with me not everything always helps with my anxiety. Sometimes reading Harry Potter will help and sometimes journaling will help or sometimes music will help or sometimes even a podcast. Depending on my level of my anxiety will determine what coping skill I need to use. It’s all trial and error and it can be very painful when something normally helps calm you down doesn’t but you just have to keep finding things that may help. I hope journaling helps give you some piece of mind.

[HJam5880 in reply to Samieeeee]

Thank you. I’ve found tracking my moods helps my depression more than my anxiety.

[Human926]

When I was on buspirone I was doing great as well. The only reason I’m not sill on it is because it didn’t work with one of the other meds my doctor wanted me on. I’m glad you seem to have found some working meds.

Holidays are always a hard time for missing people. Don’t let that get you too far down, as I personally think that’s a natural reason to be down.

[HJam5880 in reply to Human926]

Thanks! I’m doing a lot better today.

[Human926 in reply to HJam5880]

That’s so good to hear!!!

[HJam5880 in reply to Human926]

I guess we all need an emotional day every once in a while