im depressed and idk what to do

[Gutsoverfear]

my dad was confirmed positive for covid and my mental health is bad i cant cry anymore and idk what to do my panic attacks have made me sleepless and im so stessed i cant think,hes baack home and recovering but he went outside and idk what to do i tried yelling at him but he doesnt listen

[Ziggy2000]

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time. I was quite sick with covid and I'm really worried about my 89 year-old father who is in a nursing home . I don't know where you are but they have been hit hard here. I've been finding the isolation very hard I live alone and don't have much to do and I've been getting quite depressed I'm anxious myself. That's why I found this site. I hope your father is safe inside now

[Gutsoverfear in reply to Ziggy2000]

im in maine and im scared for my mom and dad who both have type ttwo diabetes and sleep apnea,im so scared i stay up stressed all night and we are self isolating

[Gutsoverfear in reply to Ziggy2000]

me too i feel better here because people understand me and i dont feel crazy,i hope your father is doing okay

[SunIsShining]

Try not to control what your Dad is doing. It’s understandable that you’re worried about him but you can only control your actions. You need to let go of the anxiety that comes from his actions. It is OK to worry about others but don’t get so caught up in their actions that it stops you from living a healthy life

[Gutsoverfear in reply to SunIsShining]

thank you so much i feel so much better now,cause ive been so stressed i cant even smile

[Gutsoverfear in reply to Gutsoverfear]

hes a grown person so i will tell him its his choice but he wont put my mom through the stress

[SunIsShining in reply to Gutsoverfear]

I’ve tried to play my Mom’s protector from my Dad but in my situation it’s not worth it. She’s an adult and most of the time she doesn’t want to be helped.

[Gutsoverfear in reply to SunIsShining]

yes becasue its no way to live in constant fear for somone and they continoue to disregard your feelings that you are basically taking away your living to b cartakr but now i raliz some things i cant really control and i dont wanna live like that,

[SunIsShining in reply to Gutsoverfear]

EXACTLY!!! I find that a lot of people want or need that level of drama in their life. Sometimes it’s because they’ve been victimized for so long that it feels wrong to be emotionally stable and content but there are a lot of reasons.

[Gutsoverfear in reply to SunIsShining]

yeah its as if they cant get enough drama in their normal day to day so they create their own drama,you can only do so much and its mentally taxing because i just want to feel calm and normal for a couple minutes but its different for some but giving up ur chance of having a normal life to help someone who isnt willing to put in eeffort isnt good,my right arm was burneed when i was a baby and through thee bullying and all i pulled my seelf out and askd for heelped from theerapists but my parents done even know that beecasue they never ask,and here i am trying my best to care for them even through my own depression and anxiety but thank god i meet amazing peeople to help me stay sane

[Hidden]

Are you on anxiety meds?

[Gutsoverfear in reply to Hidden]

yes i was on them but i couldnt sleep so i weened off the meds,it made me like feel really aawake

[Gutsoverfear in reply to Gutsoverfear]

i was on high dosag thn i came to lower and i do my best to cope but its hard with pandemic and since my dads positive and has covid i been more anxious than usual

[Hidden]

I can't function without meds, will probably be on them the rest of my life. I feel lost, useless, empty and anxious, and very sad when Iam not on them!

[Gutsoverfear in reply to Hidden]

im sorry to hear that,i hope u ar doing better at the moment i know how much it sucks to be in constant fear,i was diagnosed like really young and i never really got to have a really normal childhood but now as i get older im learning new ways to handle my disorder

[Hidden in reply to Gutsoverfear]

Do you take antidepressants?

[Gutsoverfear in reply to Hidden]

yes i also was on them,i dont have health insurance anymore so i cant even afford them anymore

[Daz2310]

Doctors meds ASAP

[Gutsoverfear in reply to Daz2310]

i am trying to sign up for insurance i dont have insurance so its been outta pocket payment and im running low on funds since i cant work because of covid ,but im coping best i can,im doing better then i was a couple days ago

[Hidden in reply to Gutsoverfear]

The withdrawal period is horrible

[Gutsoverfear in reply to Hidden]

it suks so bad thee first few weeks i had suicidal thoughts and cried my way through it,my sisteer had her suicide attempt when she stoppd using hers and knowing theres people depending on me helped me through it ,weening is really hard and not for everyone but im in a better mental state now,

[Daz2310]

Where u live ?

[Gutsoverfear]

I live in maine