Forced and betrayed

Why do I feel I have been betrayed by my best friend? So like I had said on my most recent post we had to be quarantined. During this time I really learned that those who worry about you at the end of the day is only beneficial for theirselves. I would get a message here and there from the one that calls herself my "only best friend". Asking how I was doing and about my mother. But these couple of days she was only asking for ua to accept and be tested for covid. My only response was no and I would just become so mad. But it was not only my so called friend but also the wannabe supervisor at my job. Asking my brother and I to take the test. We had been told several times by our doctor that is wasn't needed unless we presented symptoms that being said we didnt want to take away a test that can help someone in real need. They would text me and I would end up just mad and with a headache. So yesterday we were practicaly forced to take the covid test...why do I say forced because our boss said( these only being the words that supposably my "supervisor" said my boss had spoken to her) " If they keep deny themselves to get tested I will have to let them go." So we made an appointment to get tested. In all this only my brother had spoken with our "supervisor" and I just had to agree I was left with no other choice that being said. I texted my "best friend" I was super mad because just the day before this I told her to stop telling us what to do. So I told her that everyone in my work place can go F themselves because all this was so not necessary. I dont know why but I feel like she had betrayed me in all this. She says she is worried about me yet she travels to LA and back and she also spends time around big groups of people and not one of them uses masks. Like I'm sorry but you can not say you worry about covid and turn around and make get togethers. So now we have to wait 72 hours and I freaking out a lot because if for some reason its postive we start the quarantine all over again and I don't know how my anxiety and depression will take a toll on my life

[HopeforJustice]

Hello,

First, be proud of yourself, seeking solutions from others who can relate to your situation and/or want to give you free advice. Second, step outside your emotions and look at this as an outsider in a logical manner. Lastly, try something different and you will have a different outcome.

Never allow anyone else guilt you into doing something against your moral principles. Everyone is in panic mode. You need to separate yourself physically from the pushy people who control you. What you view as "betrayal" I see it as bickering families spending too much time together. Ask anyone living in isolation with a group of unrelated people or relatives over the past few months. I'm living alone with my dog and my dog is getting on my nerves. When I'm in the middle of an online timed exam, he whines and needs to go outside for potty. This is trivial, but the point is, I'm unable to concentrate and want to study in the library but it's closed. You are not alone, the world is unhinged right now.

Unless you've experienced complete betrayal of your loyalty, you'll understand what it feels like to feel the severe pain of total betrayal. Has your friend done any of these things? 1. Stole your money 2. Slept with your boyfriend(s) 3. gossiped behind your back to your partner/significant other in hopes to take them away from you 4. never inviting you to parties because she/he is jealous you will get more attention. This is my short list.

I've had to let go of many so-called friendships. Some people pretend to be your friend. A good friend cares about you and your well-being. A good friend will love and support your goals. A good friend will respect your opinions but will point out mistakes to make your life better. I would prefer to have no friends than lying cheating friends.

By reacting to what other people say and do, you are allowing them to control your thoughts. Live your life for you. Be the person you want to become and define yourself on your own principles.

Hope