Hi everyone. I’m new to HealthUnlocked and decided to introduce myself.
You can call me Chris.
I’ve been battling depression and anxiety for 7 years now. I started treatment in 2016 — have been on a daily 10mg dose of Lexapro (Escitalopram), and Xanax when needed, since.
It worked in lifting my moods for a little while. But recently in the past year or I suppose I may have built up a tolerance to my current dose. The numbness, fatigue, and low moods are all back. I don’t know what to feel. I know I should be rational and simply seek the next steps I can take.
But I can’t help feeling disappointed. I’m so tired of fighting a battle I can’t win. It seems like whatever I do, I’m only doing enough to fight another day. Can’t I stop fighting for good?
My condition has caused so much anxiety in my life. It’s knocked my confidence in ever living like a “normal” person can. I’ve been fired multiple times from jobs because of it. I don’t know how I’m ever going to hold down a full time job when my episodes keep knocking me off my feet. As much as I despise my condition, I despise myself even more — because I know that the only person who can help myself is me. I’ve been trying so hard but my current circumstances just tell me I’m not trying hard enough.
Really sorry to be such a Debbie downer. I don’t know what kind of advice I’m looking for, to be honest. Whatever you’ve got would be good enough. Thanks for reading.
Hello! I'm also new here. I don't have any advice and I'm also tired of trying everyday but others say that life is worth it so I'm just going to trust them on that. Take care!
Welcome to the best group of people I’ve ever met💐
Thank you for the warm welcome!
Hi Summer! Thank you for responding to me. Advice wasn’t necessary, I’m just glad I’ve made a new friend here
I found the responses below quite helpful. I hope you do too. And anytime you need a little boost or just a listening ear, please feel free to message me.
Chris
Hello! The replies did help me so thank you for posting.
Same goes for you, just message me anytime