BEYOND PROUD OF MYSELF

[Kevin160]

Its like a switch was turned , dont get me wrong it wasnt perfect

Woke up anxious but atleast i slept

Kept worrying about messing up my play but didnt get a panic attack

My heart was beating hard but i was not afraid of going on stage all of the sudden

Yesterday i got a cold , the anxiety made it worse with the digestive problems and stuff, i had hogh bp and low temperature and imwas shaking like crazy.

I thought my mind is playing games on me because mentally i feel semi-calm , so why am i experiencing all this, but when i realized its nit the anxiety and woke up and did my part perfectly in front of hundreds of people was extremely libeating , for this whole everything i used to do before it was somewhat scary because i felt i cant handle the slightest stress , i was mentally and physically drained , i allowed myself to be anxious , its a play and an audience so thats normal, so i was peoud to be able to perform well, not overthink everything , i cant comprehend how badly i wanted to do well mentally through it more importantly than doing well in the play itself.

After the play it was such a fun day with friends. Im more comfortable around people , i also went on a 2 hour car ride so i felt happy i was fairly calm all day throughout everything i did

Breathing techniques helped but i feel my mentality is different and thats the key , im trying my best to keep calm even in the storm, and long story short i feel more confident and stronger day by day , very thankful

[ciley]

sounds really nice and good, well done, i used to act...back so bad now, its more or less ruled out, i don't have social phobia or parana?