Struggling with job and living situation

[Mfgha6843]

It’s been rough since I separated from my ex, we share 2 kids (3 and 5 years old). After he told me he wanted a divorce I moved out of our home to Florida and lived with his parents, who helped with the kids, until I was able to pay off debt and find a place of my own.

Now I am moved out in a 1 bedroom apartment close to my school (I teach high school) and have been struggling. My kids are young so their schools start much later than High School and that means that during the week they can’t even sleep at the apartment with me.

I have to work part time at a tutoring center to make ends meet and survive over the summer so I go some days without seeing them. Even though it’s a short amount of time (I am switching jobs next year to a better schedule) it sucks right now and I don’t feel like mother some days.

I have been feeling more depressed than anything, but also anxious that I’ll be broke and in this situation forever. The financial situation bothers me more than the actual divorce. I just feel so stuck and down it’s been hard. I just want to be a good mother and provide for my kids.

[Booklover0219]

I’m sorry you are struggling right now and I know it fees like it will be forever. I’ve been there. I think once we get depressed and anxious we just begin to feel hopeless. It feels as though things could never get better. Things do get better though. Surprises and opportunities and blessings do come along but sometimes it gets a bit worse before it gets better. I know how discouraged you feel but try to have hope.

[Mfgha6843 in reply to Booklover0219]

Thank you for your reply! I know I am lucky because I have family support and my relationship with my ex is very good. I just tend to focus on the negative things which is not what I should be doing. I especially do this on the days I don’t see my kids, because I feel low already.

I went from being a stay at home mom to a working mom and that was a hard transition in a lot of ways.

I know I am looking into new opportunities and just need to stay positive, I know deep down it won’t always be this way. Your message helps me focus on that!

[DreamerAdam]

My prayers with you. Things will get better for you.

[Mfgha6843 in reply to DreamerAdam]

Thank you! I believe they will. I have been working hard and have applied for many different jobs so I know I can make it work somehow.

I’ve survived so much and I can survive this!

[Shadow102030]

I’ve been there. Remember that children are resilient, I know it’s not the best scenario, but it will change. I’ve been thinking a lot about the impact that lack of security can have I. Mental health. Yours is a perfect example of that.