"Edgar, do you actually think that how long a person grieves is a measure of how much they loved someone? There's no rulebook that says how to do this." She laughed, bitterly. "Wouldn't that be great? No decisions to make. Everything laid right out for us. But there's no such thing. You want facts, don't you? Rules. Proof. You're like your father that way. Just because a thing can't be logged, charted, and summarized doesn't mean it isn't real. Half the time we walk around in love with the idea of a thing instead of the reality of it. But sometimes things don't turn out that way. You have to pay attention to what's real, what's in the world. Not some imaginary alternative, as if it's a choice we could make."
- David Wroblewski, The Story of Edgar Sawtelle
There is no formula for grief - no average length for how long it takes someone to recover from a tragic loss. You can't count down to the last day of your grief
What you can do is continue to celebrate the small victories. You may have smiled and laughed today, or helped someone who needed it. Enjoy the small triumphs as they come, and know that each one leads to healing.