How can I get better?

[Lixus]

Everyday the same cycle, I wake up thinking it will be a different day, that I can really get away from this anxiety but I'm always wrong, or at least that is what I think...

I can't talk to anybody without having anxiety. Before each conversation, I have to think about what I'm going to say, what the other person is going to answer, etc... During the conversation I always feel stressful and sometimes my mind goes blank (like I don't know what to say or how to react) And when the conversation ends my anxiety comes back and I start thinking about the things that I could have said or things that I said and I shouldn't because the other person got upset with me.

It's frustrating... I don't know what to do...

[Hidden]

Is it because you believe that it will always be the same that you never try to change anything?

[Lixus in reply to Hidden]

I tryed to change but I still can't talk without feeling this and it seems that, in this aspect of my life, is going to be the same

[Hidden in reply to Lixus]

do you find it easier to talk on here?

[Lixus in reply to Hidden]

It's so much easier here because now I don't know about anyone and anyone knows about me (I mean apart from the problems we all share) but speak face to face still being difficult and talk in other social media its the worst

[Hidden in reply to Lixus]

I was the same years ago and I could never understand why. I could never think of what to say to a person so I tried to avoid people. I always had a blank mind when I met people. Im ok now, I don't know what changed me.

This is easier on here, so if you keep using this do you think it might help you?

[Lixus in reply to Hidden]

I don't really know... I came here because I see people with similar problems (speak with people it's not the only problem I have unfortunately) so I think it can help me, another reasons is because I want to learn how to help people with problems (anxiety/depression problems, familiar problems, etc) because I never know what to say to my friends when the come to me seeking help and that's its one of the things that are "killing" me.