Worst year of my life

[AbbieDoodle]

Hello I am new to the group. My story is I have always had anxiety and have been able to control it with distractions and occasionally medication. I have lost 3 of my closest family members in 10 years all 3 years apart. I fell in love with a long time friend, life was finally great. Diabetes took over his health. Since 2016 he has had amputation, stroke and now kidney failure and heart attack. He is only 41! Living in a nursing home as he can't care for himself. I've been there for all of it but his Mommy has overpowered the situation and pushed me away. I'm crushed, anxious worse than ever. I've tried to hang in there but this week he became just like her while in the hospital again. He hasn't spoke to me in days. I have no one to even give me an update on his health. I am pretty sure Im having a nervous breakdown. I see my doctor and have medication but nothing helps. I cry non stop and tremble. I'm a self supporter so I'm dealing with this while working. Thanks for listening I know it's a long post...and it's just a summary.

[Remmao]

I am so sorry.

[CatIsMyCopilot]

That sounds awful I hope you can reconnect with him soon. You sounds like a very strong, caring person.

[QuirkyMom89]

Oh my goodness. I am so sorry to hear about everything you're going through. I wish I knew just the right words to say to take the hurt away, or at least some of it, but I don't. I can only imagine what you're going through. I am happy you're at least able to get some help. Maybe you can increase your appointments? Do you have any family/friends nearby that you can stay with or invite to stay with you for awhile? Are you are part of a local church in your area?

[QuirkyMom89 in reply to QuirkyMom89]

I hope you don't mind my solution oriented approach. I am so sorry for the loss anf hurt you have endured. I hope you are able to find your way through this and find joy again ❤️.

[Crimson913]

41? Were they type 1 or 2?

[AbbieDoodle]

Type 2 but I question that he was diagnosed properly. He was diagnosed in his twenties. Everything started in his mid thirties.

[AbbieDoodle]

Thank you for the support I know there are no real answers. I have very little family left. My sister thinks I just need to move on and forget about him. It's not how I am as a person. My friends disappeared from all the time I spent caring for my mom. I have a few good ones they are all doing the best to support me.