Hey an update, today at work I was acting very irritable and I was trying so hard to control it, I've been acting upset over this coworker correcting me on something I did know, its just everyone does that thing differently so I had no idea what I was doing was even wrong.i don't want to be an "ass" to people, I'm stressing over every "perceived" mistake to the point it affects my whole day. I am wondering if this is really OCD and anxiety or is it something else? I really want to get another diagnosis.
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Hi Jperez, certainly if you question the diagnosis, I would seek a second
opinion. I may not be a doctor but to me it doesn't sound like either.
Good Luck in finding some answers. You deserve to know.
Theres no question I have anxiety, I worry about everything how people perceive me, and my voixe changes etc. I am sure of the anxiety, not sure of the OCD. All my life I've known that.
I just happen to scroll down a little further and saw another post you
did about having had OCD and Anxiety most of your life. I thought you had
just been recently diagnosed when I responded. I have no experience in
OCD just anxiety. I do know that most of us are people pleasers and are
very concerned in how others perceive us. That was drilled into me as a
child and I never outgrew that thought. As for getting irritable if someone
disapproves of something I said or did, I get hurt very easily.
It's best to talk this over with your therapist or doctor. Knowing what you
are dealing with is the first step in working towards an answer.
Yeah I understand completely, sorry if I seemed upset. Just didn't want to take another step backwards.
The people pleasing thing I did, I've just stopped trying to please everyone, but its still there and I get upset when people do not ackoledge me at work, but I try to hide it, and It comes off in a megative way, hence the negative part.
I act like someone I'm not at work my voice changes, I am scared on the inside but I hide it with irritability. Sorry for seeming offended, im not but I cant deny the anxiety.
I stress every day, before I come to work, or whenever I have to meet someone new, over the fear they will judge me or think im rude, but the anxiety makes me something i'm not.
It's all tied in to what you experienced as a child with the bullying and teasing
and now your reaction to people when they put you down.
Heres my what I had wrote on my previous questions it explains it much better.
All my life I've had anxiety, as a kid my parents noticed from a young age. Growing up I hated my anxiety to the point I lied about not having it when it was blatantly obvious. During elementary I remember seeing these special ed counslers, and they would come and get students, that needed the extra help as far as I can remember, I just remember ut making me feel worse and it went downhill from there. I was also dealing with my sexuality which kids had always assumed and I still to this day think my anxiety is to blame. I can't let go of the past teasing, bullying. I am acting negative to this day because of it. Ive taken meds for OCD and anxiety, talked to therapists and still nothing. I obssess over the past. And I am scared the reason why i do it, is becaise my life is so empty, its just unreasonable stress. I am currently in training for a job and as much as I try to be positive the negative thoughts overwhelm the positive. My parents always mean well, but it just sucks when they tell me my I don't have real problems to worry about.
Thank you for explaining it in more detail. You've had a lot of baggage that you
are carrying into adulthood. There are so many facets that have led to how
you relate to people now which I believe only a qualified therapist can lead
you in the right direction.
Jperez1381, from what you write here this is just anxiety disorder exaggerating every irritation and worry to the power of ten. So I think your diagnosis was correct and can't think of any alternative. But for reassurance do talk to your doctor if you're not convinced.
I agree. Should have put this somewhere else due to the mention of OCD.
I moved back to Idaho recently and I dont have a doctor setup, parents are busy, im busy, lack of transportation. I would If I could. Anyways thanks.
I think it's insecurity to the 10th power really. The OCD and anxiety is not part of that. It starts with insecurity. The notion of not being good enough,not being worthy, self loathing, and/or "somethings missing in me" Those are insecurities that stem from our upbringing and is brought into our adulthood.
Does all of these make sense to you?
I do want to add one more thing but I'll wait until u respond.
I disagree, its the anxiety for me. I feel confident, I feel secure. Then all of a sudden the anxiety creeps in. I do not feel like an introvery and it angers me when others see me that way.
To say the OCD and Anxiety isnt part of that would be me taking a few steps back. I know who I really am.
I felt not good enough when I was diagnosed with anxiety, and whenever people can see it, thats when the insecurity comes in. Its always been linked to that.
If it starts with anxiety then that's a different story. I didnt know that. From what I experience, it's thoughts then anxiety. If you automatically get anxiety & then thoughts it might be PTSD. Im not a professional, Im just taking from what Ive learned in therapy to help. Ive had a lot of therapy..lol
So maybe you're right, u might be misdiagnosed. It does happen.
Maybe thia is useless infomation but a thing that I remember is my voice sounding very feminine, whenever I was nervous when I thought people saw me differently, that led to assumptions.
The only thing I think im misdiagnosed os the OCD, I do think that correlates with what you are saying.
(This was my firstbpost explained in more detail) All my life I've had anxiety, as a kid my parents noticed from a young age. Growing up I hated my anxiety to the point I lied about not having it when it was blatantly obvious. During elementary I remember seeing these special ed counslers, and they would come and get students, that needed the extra help as far as I can remember, I just remember ut making me feel worse and it went downhill from there. I was also dealing with my sexuality which kids had always assumed and I still to this day think my anxiety is to blame. I can't let go of the past teasing, bullying. I am acting negative to this day because of it. Ive taken meds for OCD and anxiety, talked to therapists and still nothing. I obssess over the past. And I am scared the reason why i do it, is becaise my life is so empty, its just unreasonable stress. I am currently in training for a job and as much as I try to be positive the negative thoughts overwhelm the positive. My parents always mean well, but it just sucks when they tell me my I don't have real problems to worry about.
I think it would be worth it for you to research PTSD. That's Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. It sounds like those situations from your past are effecting you in the present day. It also sounds like u r getting triggered everytime you're in certain situations.
If therapy has never worked for you, I think parts therapy would really work. It's a specialty therapy like CBT is. It's worth looking into to too!
I actually do agree but even I can admit it wasnt really a major thing like for example a man or a woman suffering from the effects of war.
Fighting in war is traumatic yea but there are things that could be less traumatic but can still cause trauma.
I sometimes get aggravated and irritable and also thought it was due to anxiety. My therapist shared a worksheet with me that helped me better identify it as hyperarousal in response to post-traumatic stress. Maybe that's what you're going through?
Ive thought about that, the fact that whenever I meet new people and im afriad of the same scenarios happening.
Yes, one response can be to become irritable, even aggressive. Do you have that happen to you? One of the hard things is repressing it can make it worse. Going to the gym to blow off steam, or something similar could be a constructive way of expressing it.