Crying at work

[Jozey17]

I am sitting in the bathroom crying at work. I have been feelin emptiness for the past two weeks. It has progressively gotten worse. I have been off sertraline for 2 1/2 months and am questioning whether or not to go back on them. I don’t feel suicidal I am not unhappy in my life. I find it hard to get out of bed but I do. My self esteem has gone down the drain and I feel like I am losing myself.

[sadnab]

You probably need to get back on some type of anti-depressant. I've been on zoloft, or something similar since 1996. If I go off it, I get really depressed. Nothing is changing in my life, I just close down, go home, don't call anyone, don't visit anyone, just hide in my bedroom. If you have insurance, talk to your provider, there may be some other kind of medication you can take, or you may be able to talk to a mental health therapist, which may health. Please try to reach out to someone; at work, at a clinic, a meeting. There are so many people out there with depression problems.

[Jozey17 in reply to sadnab]

I hate the idea of depending on something. Because even when I was on it I went through a really bad period of depression while on them. I had never felt it that bad. Then my cat died and I was in the middle of buying a home so i said fuck it and stopped taking it. Then i felt liberated and on top of the world. Now i am back to not depression but more of a feeling of emptiness. I can’t explain it.

[Casewest20 in reply to sadnab]

I just wanted to say that I can really relate to the idea of shutting down closing up inside your bedroom and just ignoring the world. That’s what I have done for years, to different extremes of course. Like I will ignore my mother texting me, I am out of one of my meds but it really really was impossible to pick up the phone and deal with it. This is how I feel almost constantly, I’m not saying I can’t relate to people who have episodes of anxiety or depression – it’s just when I’m not depressed Seems like it’s totally based on what chemicals are in my system at the time if that makes sense. Thanks for reading

[Db1989]

Jozey you literally described the past month of my life. I been to see a doctor. He told me it's anxiety caused by massive levels of stress. Recommended counselling which I never took and here I find myself online again looking for answers. Maybe I should listen to the doctor. I have financial worries. I don't like my job. My house is a shit hole (not messy or dirty I just don't like it). I have a baby boy to take care of. I feel like my boy and my wife deserve better. I am not depressed or suicidal but I just feel like I am slipping away from myself and I don't like it. How old are you jozey and what is bothering you in life?

[Jozey17 in reply to Db1989]

I am 27 years old. a lot of changes have happened in the past week or so. I have been in the middle of remodeling the home i bought, moved into it this past weekend. I go to counseling once a month and have been for 10 years off and on and found that once monthly works for me. I just got a dog so my cat could hve a friend and their company is amazing. I just get irritable and I have been feeling really tired lately. Started dating someone and its going great but they even notice how irritated and short I would be in conversations over the phone. My work i did enjoy but it bores me now.

[Db1989]

Also jozey do you suffer from panic attacks?

[Jozey17 in reply to Db1989]

I do not suffer from panic attacks often. Though I have had one at work probably 4 months ago. I couldn’t breathe i was hypervenilating and crying because of an issue with a coworker.

[Casewest20]

I just wanted to say that I can really relate to the idea of shutting down closing up inside your bedroom and just ignoring the world. That’s what I have done for years, to different extremes of course. Like I will ignore my mother texting me, I am out of one of my meds but it really really was impossible to pick up the phone and deal with it. This is how I feel almost constantly, I’m not saying I can’t relate to people who have episodes of anxiety or depression – it’s just when I’m not depressed Seems like it’s totally based on what chemicals are in my system at the time if that makes sense. Thanks for reading

[HappyChi]

Sorry I cant help right now. In my own hell, but Im hugging you tight. 🤗