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-Sasha-
-Sasha-

It's one of those days where I just wanna crawl under my blankets, curl up into a ball and get lost in my own little world. I'm fighting not to give in, but I can feel the hopelessness seeping in and latching on like the blood-sucking leech that it is. This is where my darkest thoughts occur, and that's a scary place to be.

~S~

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Hi sasha..I'm having one of those days too..just let it do its thing till it goes away..I'm here with you

-Sasha-
-Sasha- in reply to ellinaki

Thank you. It won today, but didn't get the best of me. I appreciate the support. Hope your day ended up getting better, if not then here's to tomorrow 😊

~S~

ellinaki
ellinaki in reply to -Sasha-

Here is to tomorrow...

I've been having a lot of these days lately. I just posted something similar the other day. 🙁 Life feels suffocating...I want to run and hide from it by myself. Just wanted you to know you're not alone. It helps me to know I'm not alone with these feelings too.

Yea I hate feeling like I'm constantly complaining or just being negative but I can't control these feelings so I'm not gonna dwell on that right now. Retreat is the word that comes to mind whenever things get hard and threaten to ruin my day. I just have to pick my battles. I hate that you're going through this too, but i am grateful to have someone who understands. Whenever you need a friend, don't hesitate to ask. Thank you so much for your support.

~S~

I appreciate that! Right back at ya! I know how much it helps to have a sounding board. And you shouldn't feel like you're just complaining or being negative on here...that's what we're all here for. We've all come to the site for the same reason (or at least I hope) and that's to get support from one another. I completely understand not being able to control those feelings. And I like your word "retreat." I'm gonna use that!

We care about you and even with those dark thoughts you are still somebody who is worthy and loved.

-Sasha-
-Sasha- in reply to aaronm

Thanks aaron, it's always good to be reminded of that 🙂

~S~

I'm sorry you have some days that are difficult. I've learned that I have to think of the word fighting instead of hiding. It is good to have "tools" that you can use when you feel the moods coming on. It is a constant battle, so you have to equip yourself to win!

-Sasha-
-Sasha- in reply to Ann10

That's very true about equipping ourselves for the fight. I'm usually better but I think I let my guard down yesterday. Well it's something I can work on. Thanks for the support.

~S~

Ann10
Ann10 in reply to -Sasha-

You're welcome. I understand completely.

I know exactly what you mean. I've been there for the last two weeks. Hopelessness is the symptom I often notice first when I'm really struggling with my depression, and it was how I could tell I was sinking back into a depressive episode a couple weeks ago. Trying to battle it, but I really just want to stay in bed. Hope today has been better for you.

-Sasha-
-Sasha- in reply to bluestars725

My first symptom is confusion because my feelings are all over the place and i get sad, but don't know why I'm sad. That's when the hopelessness kicks in. I know the feeling of not wanting to get out of bed. You wouldn't think that something so simple would be one of the hardest things you accomplish of the day. I hope you find the strength to get up.

~S~

bluestars725
bluestars725 in reply to -Sasha-

Thank you. Right now, it still feels like nothing is ever going to get any better. Sleep has definitely become my escape from depression. Simple everyday tasks become impossible. I also have generalized anxiety disorder, and that makes it feel even difficult. Trying to battle depression when it makes me feel hopeless and worthless is so hard.

-Sasha-
-Sasha- in reply to bluestars725

Those days are the hardest, with that cloud of doom just following you around all day. And yes, the sweet bliss of unconsciousness. I'm grateful that my sleep hasn't been affected this time around. Sometimes it's more effective than anything else, just getting some rest. I know the depression makes you feel hopeless and worthless, but know that you are neither of those things. Things will get better, just take it one day at a time 😊

~S~

bluestars725
bluestars725 in reply to -Sasha-

Trying to take it one moment at a time when I feel like this. The last two weeks have felt like two years. Thank you so much for the for the encouragement. Sending that same encouragement right back to you too.

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-Sasha-
-Sasha- in reply to Hidden

Thank you for your kind words. Even tho it might not seem like it at times, I fight everyday just for a better tomorrow. It's not in me to give up. Hugs right back at ya 🤗

~S~

Hang in there, those days don’t last forever

-Sasha-
-Sasha- in reply to pink83737

It's been a better day today. Everyone's been so supportive, I appreciate it all.

~S~

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