Suicidal ideation problems

[Imaginator997]

I have a history of depression and anxiety, but my main problem is suicidal thoughts/ suicidal ideation. I get suicidal thoughts that don’t have a reason for being there. So I was started on lithium in the hospital. And it worked for a little while but then all of a sudden I started getting suicidal thoughts once again. I suppose one thing that could have started the thoughts was going back to school, I started thinking about my future and career path and the normal thing a high school senior thinks, but for me it gets me overwhelmed and stressed and I have suicidal thoughts despite being told to take things slowly. School is a big stressor and trigger for me most of the time. But aside from that the main problem was I was getting suicidal thoughts for no reason. Such as being In a crowded location that made me suicidal. And these thoughts are overwhelming and very strong. I was taking a final today and I all of a sudden got suicidal thoughts. In addition my mind has been judging me a lot recently. Sometimes I imagine people are there judging me but I don’t see them. The suicidal thoughts have the reasoning of death is an easier option than living life. Does anyone else get suicidal thoughts out of nowhere? I feel like I am the only one.

[brokenlight]

You’re not the only one.

I think it’s important that you talk about it, which isn’t always easy.

You’re very brave.

This website may be helpful in times of need.

suicidepreventionlifeline.o...

[Imaginator997 in reply to brokenlight]

Thanks for your help, but I have struggled with this for years and after 4 hospitalizations these thoughts still come back, although I might be getting a medication change so that might help but at times it seems there is no hope for me or any more help people can do.

[brokenlight]

I hope the medication change will help & I’m sorry for your suffering.

Feeling hopeless is scary... I can relate.

Wishing you peace & the help you deserve.

[Imaginator997 in reply to brokenlight]

Thank you

[baileyf14]

Anxiety and depression are terrible things to deal with and I am sorry you are going through this. Your life is so VALUBLE and PRECIOUS There are so many poeple that care about you and want to help you. Have you tried talking with a trusted adult about the thoughts you are having? If not, PLEASE do as soon as possible because that can help you tremendously. Suicidal thoughts are not something to wait around on. I hope everything gets better!

[Feathe]

I used to suffer from depression and had suicidal thoughts as well in the past. All these were hugely reduced when I changed my diet! I went to a holistic doctor who gave me a diet. I m not saying everyone s like me and maybe it will not work for you but I believe it s worth a shot. Since then I read a lot about diet and how it can affect our mood. I can tell you I felt differently within three days after the new diet and it kept improving.I stopped having unreasonable fears that my partner was going to abandon me. He had n o t given me any reasons to be afraid but I still had the fears.Now I have anxiety with other peoplethat I m trying to work on, but I don t have depression or suicidal thoughts. My doctor told me to stop sugar completely as it causes depression, so no more sweets. Also no crisps at all as they have trans fats that mess with your brain. Also no wheat, no corn , nothing that contains gluten. And no dairy.

so what would I eat? Lots of fruit in the morning to detox body. Then a nice omelette with avocado , blended sundries tomatoes and olives and some broccoli for example for breakfast. Nuts for snacks. Only almonds and walnuts though. Organic lamb with veg or vegetable risotto for lunch and maybe sardines with veg for dinner. Generally organic meat and fish with low mercury. I stayed completely out of processed for a few months and later I added buckwheat pasta or rice flour and Stevie sugar and made my own recipes. You can try the diet for a week and see if it helps you if you want. Good luck. Do n t give up. There are others that feel like you. You are not alone.