Feeling like giving up

[Mamiroo]

I feel like all my life is collapsing around me. My husband has been struggling with depression, anxiety and OCD for almost 20 years. However, it has never been this bad. He has been to the hospital 3 times within the last 12 month. To make matter worst my older girl has been diagnosed with anxiety and she had to drop off college. Now we have to pau the thousands of dollars that we borrowed for her school year. But life is not done punishing me it has given me another low blow. My little 13 year old has body dysmorphic disorder. The once happy carefree spirit beautiful girl now is angry every morning worring about how her body looks. She feels guilty for feeling hungry. She's so petite that when I hug her and I can count her ribs. She's in therapy but it's a slow process. Too much! My brain screams at me and I think that if I'm dead I won't have to worry about anything. I won't feel anything. But what about my husband and my girls? No I can't think that way. But I'm just too tired.

[Frankie1000]

Hi this is my very first post I read your post I can relate to your husband through all kinds of pills at me I don’t want to get you spooked but someone’s gonna work right now I got a surprise for my wife who wants a separation and so I’ve done and I am not in great condition right now I have the doctor told me that I don’t like him oh it’s up to us and try to find ways to get out of this I don’t wanna get on the phone computer but I do admit to feeling like I want to order medication research for us to add to my existing I don’t wanna take it but I don’t know I don’t know what to do I am in a Laura’s office yesterday and I don’t know if I head into surprise story before and after you get there then I waved call it OK sorry a lot of stress for her like I’ve been living with him for 12 years is that my personality anyway I think you should go but I like it and don’t want to tell you what to do to do but if our you I for me and maybe I would go to one on Hosp who has a good reputation but research the doctor first or something I don’t know how I don’t know if It will works for you guys . A really good friend and for 14 years brush me off I have no idea why maybe because I don’t want to go out with her or not the same date her but she distracted me from my wife that is so much pain I hate to admit it and I’m not acting like a sleazeball but I don’t know I treat her like my girl my goal for about four weeks she went along with it if she didn’t want to have this Maybe she should’ve told me after two weeks or something but you spell like me my cell love you I’m trying cannabis right now I am and experimenting with it and I don’t know if it’s working or not I don’t want us to do I’m in Caroline’s near the border of Buffalo I’m not sure if you know what that is I am considering going over to the states that are Mofy have more drugs there I can’t believe I’m asking about drugs

[Hidden]

You have a lot on your plate, no wonder you are feeling overwhelmed! It sounds like anxiety is very prevalent in your family, are your girls on antidepressant medication to assist in their recovery? I can only advise that you take time for self care and live one day at a time. Seek out support for yourself. Are you a spiritual person? Life is mind, body and spirit, all must be cared for. The healthier you are then you can be strong for your family. I have had a mental breakdown and my husband had to be my strength while I got better, but I did get better. There is hope your husband and daughters will get better too, it usually takes at least 6 months. As for the money for tuition maybe you can put a freeze instead of pulling her out, she may be better in a few months and able to go back to college.

[Mamiroo in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for the words of wisdom. I truly appreciate you taking the time to answer to a total stranger.

[mlj6019]

You are going thru a lot and I’m so sorry. You need hope, encouragement and strength. It’s so important to take care of yourself and be healthy so you can be there for your family. Like @lynnalice said, take it one day at a time and your mind, body and spirit are all important. Each one has its own needs and nurturing them all is a must. God bless and I hope things get better soon.

[Mamiroo in reply to mlj6019]

Thank you for the encouragement. It's really hard now. My husband was just released from the psychiatric clinic and his mood was good for a day. Today he's again depressed and anxious. God! I don't know how much longer I can take it. The only thing that keeps me grounded is the love for my girls and for him. On top of everything else I just started working couple of weeks ago and the job is not on my field so it's been hard to learn the job.