I can honestly say that things have been going better for me. I found out what triggered me to have suicidal thoughts and self-harm thoughts. Since I avoided the triggers, many good things has happen in my life. I feel alive again. School is going great! I have a new job and friends! I lost weight that needed to be gone. I am back at the gym and determined to get back into shape. I am happy! Just writing this made me cry As for my anxiety, I have more control of it. I can talk to people all the time. I can talk to guys too! I been on so many dates. I feel like I am being spoiled. I hope this last forever.