Feeling: ick

[AZ1970]

Is "ick" a feeling? Two days ago I had a bad flashback. I wrote about it here, but did not get any responses. I saw my therapist yesterday and had a few more memories. She identified that I was a victim of covert sexual abuse in my childhood. Now that I have put various pieces together, it is hitting me hard. I want to just stay home and block out the world. I know it will pass because I have been feeling so much better. I need to walk through this pain. I don't want to. But it is making my eating disorder worse.

I could use some encouragement this morning. Thanks everyone!

[Hidden]

Man I'm so sorry you are having to deal with all this. You know though it wasn't your fault, please know this. These nasty monsters will have to answer one day. Stand strong for you, put your armour on & be a warrior, fight the good fight for you. I wish for you peace of mind. Love, peace, light, joy & hugs!

[AZ1970 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. Your words resonate with me. I have a plan to stay busy today. If I stay home I will ruminate and get worse.

[Hidden in reply to AZ1970]

Yes staying busy is such a good thing to do. Make it shine today! Dump trucks of love, peace, light, joy & hugs!

[Starrlight]

❤️

[aaronm]

Hi AZ. I hope you start feeling better soon. I've never been a victim of sexual abuse but some if my foster and adopted children have. It breaks my heart. Thank you for reaching out on the site and I hope we see you around a lot.

[Florida1959]

Morning, sorry not been on here a lot, what an awful thing to go through, and deal with, work through it, realise that these kind of people are trash, playing on the innocents and vulnerable, take one day at a time ( I take it by the hour!), sending healing vibes and hugs xxx get into nature, xxx