I always see people describing depression as a deep sadness...
For me though it’s like all my thoughts, opinions, emotions and feelings become completely numb. Talking seems like it is physically tiring and difficult. You know how normally when we talk.. we just do it.. we open our mouth and a voice comes out. When I’m having a ‘depressive episode ‘ it’s honestly difficult to talk. I don’t know what to say .
I feel hungry sometimes (more like weakness and needing energy from food?) ... I start to eat a meal and after a few spoonfuls I’m completely full and feel sickly.
Human company is something I don’t want at all.
It’s like I’m so tired.I give up... I don’t wanna play anymore. I can’t win.
I haven’t gone to my classes for two weeks now. Took me ten years to join in the first place.
Is this where I give up on everything and go back to barely living and waiting for days to finish?
I can’t sleep at night even though I’m so so so sleepy all the time.
Im feeling numb.