This is the last year of trying to have my own family. My ex was abusive to all of us, more to my girls than me. It took over 20 years before I regained our life.
Now it’s too late they are grown and even the ex is not there for company now. I have options but none that were my choice. I don’t know how you get forgiveness from your children. I did stick up for them. I even jumped in front of the punches. It’s depressing when your on anti depression drugs and your still depressed.
Well if the one dr is right I will either be dead or not know anyone next year at this time. Your health only holds out so long. I get reprimanded at my age for Diet Pepsi and cigarettes. I can’t see how quitting now would give me much more time. I’m alone again tonight and just wanted to vent.