10.27.18

[backupPlan]

Today was a good day until I was in a situation where I was so proud of my boyfriend for where he is and I love supporting him but when I was with him at an NHS ceremony I felt ashamed of myself and embarrassed to be seen. Don’t get me wrong I’m extremely proud of him. He’s done nothing wrong. But I’ve been constantly put down for not being good enough or as good as him. And seeing him make it and be great just made me feel so small and that I wasn’t good enough. I was disappointed in myself for not being there with him and not being able to make it to that level of greatness,when no matter how hard I try something bad always happens especially when I’m finally becoming happy again. But I’m even more mad at myself for being so selfish. Maybe I was just jealous...

[puglove0093]

We all get jealous at times, but we have to put things in perspective. If you really enjoy being with him and he is kind to you and you have a good time together, you shouldn't let that little thing take over. I know it is easier said than done, trust me! I bet no one else thinks that he is better than you! We let our insecurities run rampant and destroy the good things we have. I am praying for you!