First of all thank you for all the great responses I’ve received on my earlier postings. I often have a hard time responding to them all, but thank you everyone. I have no friends, nobody at all. I can’t motivate myself to do something that will help me. Now I’m stuck with horrible anxiety and depression. Constantly worried about what would happen to me if I needed someone to help me, who would I turn to? I don’t want to live this way anymore, but Im not doing anything positive about it. According to my phychiatrist I lack self motivation, Im always thinking negative and have low self esteem. When I was younger, I always needed someone to push me into doing things or else I would avoid them. Now Im older and I’m scared. I hate what I’ve done to my life.