Nights are hard

[Callie429]

Today was a good day. I spent time with family. I felt secure, safe and certain. I’m at work now and my mind is running. I’m thinking about what will happen with my kids if I was no longer here. I wonder if their dad will step up more. I wonder if he would miss me. He’s the love of my life and he can’t see me. Why can’t he see me. I’m the one that has been there always. I’m thinking of ways to get him to see me. I want him to see I’m hurting, to see I’m struggling and to see how lonely I am. Do I slit my wrist? Do I take pills? Did I smash my car into tree? Do I stop it on train track? I need for him to listen. I need for him to see. I hate nights.

[Iloveart7]

Same here. Nights suck, especially when alone. Sending thoughts your way

[Callie429 in reply to Iloveart7]

Thank you. I work third shift so I can’t even take something to sleep this feeling away

[Iloveart7 in reply to Callie429]

Ya, I also work midnight's

[Callie429]

Ugh, not a good shift for is is it!

[Iloveart7 in reply to Callie429]

It sure is not a good shift for us. Especially on nights I don't work my mind goes crazy

[Callie429]

What’s on your mind tonight? If you want to talk about it?

[Iloveart7 in reply to Callie429]

I messaged you

[Llama00]

I Hope it gets better for you, nights are terrible for me as well.

[aaronm]

I'm sorry your having a bad night. Can you exercise while your at work? When I worked 3rd shift as a correctional officer I used to go to the gym on my lunch break and work out.

[Callie429 in reply to aaronm]

I wish I could exercise but I work in a group home. I have to keep close eye on cameras because they try and slip by all the time

[aaronm in reply to Callie429]

How about light calisthenics sitting in the chair or standing in front of the screen?

[Callie429 in reply to aaronm]

Never tried that but I will. Thanks!