Abandoned while in recovery

[Chief123]

Hi, I'm new here. I'm here because I've struggled with depression and anxiety my whole life. Earlier this year I was additionally diagnosed as bipolar OCD and PTSD. I entered an intensive outpatient program to get the help I needed for 2cmiths. My spouse abandoned me emotionally during that time, when I needed my spouse thecmost. Spouse says that my struggles with mental illness took a heavy toll, which I will always regret. But what about wedding vows, in sickness and in health, good times and bad? We are now separated and she goes out of her way she cares nothing for me or my recovery from my program. I am still working my recovery with no support system while dealing with marriage troubles. I dont have my h of a support network I spent a lot of my life just trying to make it thru the day. Has anyone else had a similar experience? If so, how have you coped?

[swimmingupstream]

Yes, I have had similar challenges PTSD, OCD, depression, anixety, panic attacks... I too have struggled with making it thru the day. I have to find something I'm interested in learning and that gives me focus outside my thoughts. Is there anything your curious to know more about in the world. Something that intrigues you?

[Chief123 in reply to swimmingupstream]

That is great insight thank you for sharing. I'm into politics so the midterm elections have captured my interest. Other than that, as I finally see a glimmer of light at the end of this long dark tunnel I realize I have lost myself in the struggle with mental illness. Going into intensive therapy program, and working on recovery. I put what energy I could into my family, only to find myself separated. In short, I'm working on re discovering myself so I can rebuild my life as part of recovery

[PositiveSurvival]

Yes- right in the thick of it now. Marriage problem (catastrophe) was a major factor in my ongoing illness- super-chronic anxiety and depression- 3 hrs sleep a night for months. No support from wife- still living under 1 roof with 2 children. I’m struggling by the HOUR.

Please message me if you like the idea that we support each other on a daily basis.

Kind regards,

Ian

[Hidden]

Chief, it is hard to lose support that you thought was there for you. But during this intense recovery time, you will be learning how to make it through a day without depending on other people. Others can't be there anytime, every time; they are only human. You asked how I cope, so I will answer. I've learned not to rely on humans, but on God, to be with me through the tough times. I have lost that feeling of desperation and hopelessness.

[Chief123]

Thank you for reaching out to me, I've always reached out to God and made him an important part of my life. I talk to him daily asking him to help me stay in recovery

[Hidden in reply to Chief123]

The times that I have felt God the closest were in my toughest times. You can look forward to times like that, too. Sometimes I would be on my knees praying for help to get through the next hour when my children were very little. I was overwhelmed.