I’ve gone through many trials in my life suc as my oldest son dying at age 23, divorce from husband who was alchoholic and also has passes on not to mention other things. Somehow I’ve got through this but now have trouble with daily life and fears of ridiculous things such as getting out with people, and in rain. I’m pretty much a loner and stay in an apartment. I don’t get out much unless I need to. Occasionally, I’ll go out with my sisters. I don’t know how to get out of my thoughts. My younger son is getting married in early December. He lives in Cleveland, and I’m very anxious about this upcoming event, too.