I joined and left my first post last night. I wasn't surprised to see several kind responses this morning. Thanks to everyone who commented. It's been 3 or 4 years since I've expressed this opinion before and it's gotten me run off from two other support sites. I wasn't kicked off but the responses were so visceral that I dropped off. I believe in full disclosure so here goes...
At some point I had to accept who and what I am. I quit fighting it. I came to understand that not everyone is created to be happy. There is a purpose for being created unhappy - contrast. How else would others know they are happy if they cannot measure happiness against those who are not. Unhappy people affirm those who are happy. Many years ago I stopped taking my meds so I could think clearly. I stopped fighting who I am and I find that I am less unhappy because I am not frustrated by fighting to change things I cannot change. From my very earliest memories in preschool I've always been an outcast. I've never fit in. I've never know an extended period of what most people call happiness. I finally accepted that I am who I am. I am what I am. Who am I to say it's wrong and change it. When I stopped fighting it I settled into the least unhappy condition I could find.