I need to get through the day... and I’d like to let myself stop worrying enough to focus on something i genuinely want to do...

[Starrlight]

Struggling. Even in being mindful the suffering still is with me so I am being with it. It feels tight and kind of like a hard object inside of me punching me trying to be felt heard growing bigger and I need to let it out so I can see it and hopefully repair. Maybe I need to learn a lesson.

I feel so tired of living.

I want to work on a large painting of nature and am just now seeing where I want to go with but maybe a lack of passion is what is stopping me from working. I don’t know. Maybe i need to look at my art in a different way, like I am exploring myself and the world within the painting. I will go learning as I paint. I think I must have started it 8 years ago or more. This is one example of things I wish I was doing but I don’t really feel like doing it. Maybe I will go in small steps to get there. Take out easel ✅ get out paints ✅ brushes ✅...Maybe I will share my progress so that I have more of a reason to do it...

[Florida1959]

Do it xxxx

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

Ha you are awesome!

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

I’m getting everything ready in my studio section.

[Florida1959 in reply to Starrlight]

Yes , xxx I want first peek xxxxx

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

😃

[Agora1]

Starrlight, by all means share your progress with us. It will help motivate you. By all means express yourself through your paintings, most artists do. Don't push but allow the passion of your painting bring out what you are feeling. I like what I see and can't wait to see you go forward in completing your artwork. As you start feeling accomplishment in what you are doing, the motivation will start growing.

Starrlight, you are an amazing artist, time to show the world what has been hidden for 8 years. Hugs, Agora1 xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

Agora! Hi! Hug to you. So true; I need to express what I am feeling with shape color space... you have motivated me thank you!

[melbrown]

That's so beautiful Starrlight, I almost thought it was a photo of nature. Art is so therapeutic... I'm sure once you start painting you'll start to feel a bit better. Can't wait to see more. Love & hugs 💖

[Starrlight in reply to melbrown]

Thanks so much for the compliment. I’m frustrated atm but sure I’ll find my way into the art again. 💕

[Hidden]

That sounds like a good plan Starrlight! I wish I could paint or draw, but I’m just not artistic in any way! You’re blessed with a wonderful gift! Hope you can enjoy!

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Aww yeah I think you actually could as I think we are all artists. I’m trying to enjoy it even if I doesn’t come along how I like but that’s hard for me ha oh well trying to stay positive.

[Billie6307]

Hey there im Donna i know exactly how you feel im off on holiday at lunch today for a 30th birthday treat for my eldest daughter my mind wont shut off ive packed for england anybody would think im moveing out aaarrrrhhhhh but i need to take my cokfort zone with me i hope your ok we struggle on till the end i just pray one night i go to bed and sleep through rather than getting 4 hours kip takecare x

[Starrlight in reply to Billie6307]

Hi Donna! Oh I hear ya about the packing a comfort zone. Hope you have a fun time at lunch! Let me know how it goes? You can also pm me any time if you would like to chat. Best to you!

[Billie6307]

Thankyou ive got jelly belly x