Everything is harder when you are dealing with severe depression and severe generalized anxiety disorder. Everything you think of or do is going to challenges you in every way possible because you have those negative thoughts that come from your depression or anxiety that will make you feel like you can’t do something or you can’t accomplish that goal. Whenever you have bad days with your anxiety or depression or both then you have to figure out a way for you to reset your plans or try to level out how much you try and do during the week.
Making sure I am one with myself or just making sure I know what I am doing to make my life less complicated. I know one thing I struggle with is asking for help. I know asking for help isn’t a bad thing but knowing that I need help is something that I struggle with because I want to be able to figure things out for myself. Knowing that I have depression is something I struggle with because I don’t know how to cope with it yet. My depression is something that tends to control how I feel or what I want to accomplish. It’s something that I tend to try and make it as a fake person and then take my positive side and stand up to it.
Every day is a struggle with me because I don’t know how to communicate with others on how I feel. I do try to work on communicating better because I want to get better. It’s a one day at a time type of thing where you do what you need to do each and every day.
The one thing that I realized is that no matter what mental problem I may have doesn’t mean you let that define you or control you. I know I have days where I can’t control how I feel, my thoughts, when I am tired and need to go to sleep. Being my weird self is one way I know that I am truly me and that I am my own person and no one else can control that part of myself. Learning to accept yourself is the hard part. Excepting you have these challenges doesn’t mean you should stop trying your best to accomplish your goals.
I know that not everyone has support or good environments but not making sure you are okay by taking time for yourself and focusing on figuring out what techniques or coping mechanisms help you get through the day.