So I thought about going through with surgery and I feel like what if I still feel the same. When I think about changing myself I feel sad because how can I know who truly loves me for who I really am, but at the same time I can’t take much more rejections. I’m going to be blunt ok...l.i really believe that people don’t hold nothing personal against me it’s just people are extremely curious and judgmental to anyone who looks or acts differently from the normal society. I also understand that there are a lot of jerks who will put you down or judge you harshly on your appearance because we all judge to a certain degree. No way in hell that every single person who judges is evil I refuse to believe that. I’m confused because I feel like surgery will help me and at the same time what if things don’t go the way I want it will that be the last nail in the coffin because I’m pretty damaged already. I don’t know how others who live with facial disfigurement are able to do it, but for me it’s extremely tough. It’s been 10 years of Rejection and discrimination for me so I’ve tried literally everything in my power to love myself. What if surgery changes my life for the better? It’s not like I’m making a complete make over too just a few minor changes. I feel like looks relate to status and wealth also. I mean what if people only love you because your rich or famous. Even celebrities and models are deppressed! So confused. I kinda don’t want to hear “love or accept yourself” cause apparently it’s not working. Still though Any feedback would be nice thank you! I forgot to mention also what if I become more insecure and self conscious if I do go through with surgery thanks!