The depression always returns

[Gaviota79]

I am in my sixties and I have suffered from depression since my early thirties. It stays dormant for a few months and then it appears for a few months. I am so tired of this terrible roller coaster ride. I have tried cognitive behavior therapy, a plethora of different antidepressants, retreats, online peer support, etc. I am in the throes of yet another depressive episode.

[fauxartist]

I too have been living with this for decades....and it's just horrible. I am glad you found this place because there are a lot of us here who understand trying meds, and therapies....it's just that there is no cure for depression....and it's the difficult part to accept ....no magic pill....but since I found this place I have found friends who completely get it when you share about the down side of this thing....and you can share about what your going through, it's helpful to at least know your being heard.

[Gaviota79 in reply to fauxartist]

I think my biggest problem is that I want to be cured of depression and I want that magic pill. I keep hoping that my depressive episodes will all of a sudden just disappear. I have a hard time accepting the fact that it is not going away and that I have to find ways to cope with it.

[fauxartist in reply to Gaviota79]

I think that's a very good point,.... we just want it to go away...in my heart though....I think the majority of society has something on their plate,...anxiety, health...emotional stuff, loss, grief....all of it. And yes...we have the predisposition for depression....but once we realize this is a disease like any other.... it's just something we have to mind. I wanted to be a bio-organic chemist and come up with cures for things when I was a kid. Too bad I was too sick and underfunded to finish my degree in medicine....who knows.....it could have been my life's work to find a cure.... I believe this is a genetic abnormality....and with the studies of pin pointing genes functions and gene therapy....who knows....maybe in our lifetime we will see a cure...we live in hope.

[Rpan]

We all often want to feel a certain way, especially in the throes of depression. I’ve learned the more I resist these depressed times the longer and harder they feel. There is a growing body of evidence that is changing the thought process about depression, it is to run towards those times, embrace the the depressive feelings, some even ask for more. I know it sounds counterintuitive, but it works. I have in the past feared the down times, I have found it’s the fear that fuels these low times, by flipping the thoughts towards the depression it has lessened the fear associated with the low moods/times. Try searching this now method, it’s a very different mind set, it has been helpful for me.

[Gaviota79 in reply to Rpan]

It is certainly worth a try. Thanks,

[Stilltrying_]

Feel for you. This happens with me also. Gemma x

[crowningglory19]

Hello, I'm sorry you have had to deal with this so long! I have had my bouts too. I found that taking magnesium and ginseng help me a lot! They calm the mind body and spirit and get rid of those sticky negative thoughts that loop around and around. Also, getting outside, laying on grass, looking at stars help. Another longer term thing is getting involved in some time of volunteering to get outside of your own problems. It doesn't have to be a lot, or a heavy burden, many hands make light work. If you are interested in essential oils these help with depression: Lavender, Chamomile, Jasmine, and frankincense. For anxiety use Cedar wood, sandalwood, Peppermint and Myrrh. Hope these help you! =) Time to be better! <3

[Gaviota79 in reply to crowningglory19]

Thanks for replying to my comments. Can you give me the specifics regarding the ginseng and the magnesium? I would like to know what brands you prefer and in what dosage.Thanks.

[crowningglory19 in reply to Gaviota79]

I use the Nature's Sunshine brand, they are trustworthy and good. I order them online. The Korean Ginseng is 380mg each pill, I take two a day till I feel better then back off till I need them again. I start taking them as soon as I get that worry or down feeling to nip it in the bud. The magnesium I take is mag. complex capsules. It is a mix of mag. citrate and malate. the Citrate alone can cause diarrhea and isn't as bio available. The malate is most available and best for calming mind. Each pill is 250mg and I take 2 every evening. At first, I take it twice a day to get in system if I've been off for a bit like right now since I am out and they are being shipped. If you'd rather get another brand at a vitamin shop, just look at ingredients and compare. =) Blessings!

[Gaviota79]

Thank you so very much for the information. I am going to try both the magnesium and the ginseng. Best wishes to you.