Lost Mind

[lolavee1]

So as a teen and child i had alot of depression many thoughts and a few suicidal moments, when i met my husband most of it went away and after i had my first baby it completely went away. Well a bit after my second child everything came flooding back and i have no idea why. My mind goes blank i find myself forgetting everything on my free time i just feel like why am i here, i dont want to be awake i dont want to do anything i feel like im not even me. Sometimes i feel everyone would be fine without me, like my babies have eachother they will be fine with out me. I dont want to be here most days and the world and everything is just felling like too much.

[Hidden]

Is there any chance you're suffering from PPD? I had it 2 times & felt like you do now. Are you getting any help for yourself? If not please do, there is help out there. I'm here for you. May you find peace & light! Love & Hugs!!!

[lolavee1 in reply to Hidden]

I did have it mainly because my baby had colic and it was gone everything was good then boom one day everything came flooding back like my past and the struggles i use to go through the only thing that eases my mind is work or being with my kids.

[Hidden in reply to lolavee1]

Maybe it is still lingering? I would go to your Dr. , then you can help to put your mind at ease. Love & Hugs!!!

[Hephzibah2014]

No matter where your thoughts or feelings take you, your babies need you and your husband needs you. I struggled with anxiety and depression most of my life and feel that I've been able to overcome it with diet, exercise and my faith, but I've wondered how a pregnancy would affect me. Dealing with a collicy baby is very difficult (my nephew had it) and the loss of sleep can be draining along with the other life stressors. Maybe see a counselor along with your doctor or obgyn to see what exactly is causing you to feel this way? You have so much to live for and you have a hope and a future ahead of you! This is temporary and you will overcome this! Hugs and prayers <3