Hi all, does anyone have social anxiety like me? I just realized all my weird behaviors among people is actually this disease.
It started from high school triggered by a traumatic experience. When the room is quiet, I started to feel very uncomfortable about my face and body and I didn’t know how to swallow my saliva. I couldn’t help making very fast and insanely like facial or body movement. And when I finally figured to swallow saliva, I made disgusting noise with a bone in my ears and throat. The other people stared and laughed at me when I did so. I feel so bad and didn’t know how to stop it. My weird behaviors and panic also come out when I’m around attractive men(I’m a girl) So it scared away boys I like.
It’s been ten years and I tried to relax but these things still happen frequently. It may not seem to be a big deal compared with many other diseases but I deeply wish I could act like a normal person and being not social awkwardly.