Thank you so much everyone... yesterday was a struggle. Told my therapist about wanting to hurt myself. We got my husband on the phone, he now knows. It was difficult but necessary. She wanted me to do inpatient care.... but I am scared to. Giving to give out patient program a try, I meet with them Monday. Going back on Zoloft. I still scared, thoughts still there, but have my husband watching out. Going to my best friend's today... He doesn't know. He knows I'm in therapy & that's about it... Going to talk to him. Worried about that. So, that's where I'm at.... scared, but a little less alone.