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The ups and mostly downs of depression.

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Yesterday I had one of the worst days. And I’ve had a lot of bad days. I’ve never wanted to be dead so badly in my life. I’m surprised I am alive today. I am diagnosed with complex PTSD, anxiety, and severe depression. I’m really just looking for a place I can go to get support when I’m feeling down.

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Hello,welcome to this place,you'll get support here.so why was your day so bad if you don't mind me asking?

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Well long story short, I am in a “complicated” relationship and it just seems like I am always causing so much stress on his life. And then I start to feel horrible about myself and contemplate suicide. The last year has really worsened for me. I just feel so out of place and lost in the world. Unable to control my emotions.

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Sending you good thought and positive vibes. There is a ton of support, sometimes found in the most odd but remarkable places

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Thank you so much. I sure hope you are right!

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Isn't there any confidence classes in your area to help you with this?I've done the wee course myself and it was funny,fun,great to meet and hear others,do you have a mental health nurse?maybe she could findout for you,because it sounds like an ongoing thing that you want to improve?.

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I’m not sure about any classes. I see a therapist and take medication though. I just don’t feel like I’m getting any better.

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Therapist should know of some self help things in your area.best of luck.

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Hi, glad you came to talk about it, I been on meds for almost 3 years and felt like I was just not changing 3 days ago they switched me to another med so maybe this one will work, have you talked about that with your Dr? Anyways hope we all can help you out, it always good to be around people that understand you.

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midnight18 in reply to vinman12

Thank you I appreciate it. I have talked to my therapist but usually it’s not bad enough for me to want to die. Usually I just feel more like life would be better without me.

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