Struggling through the day

[JohnPB]

It is difficult for me to make it through the day. I have depression and anxiety for 15 months now. 4 weeks ago I attempted suicide, but gave up because I stabbed myself about 20 times and did not not bleed out. I am fearful that committing suicide might cause me to be sent to hell. The days pass by slowly and the night, sleep time pass quickly. At least sleep gives me a break. I look forward to going bed at night and dread getting up the next morning to start another day.

[Hidden]

Hi John, my heart hurts for you. Depression and anxiety can be so debilitating. Have you been to an inpatient psychiatric hospital? Are you being followed by a doctor? There are also intensive outpatient treatment centers. You are not alone, I’m so glad you joined this site. So many others have experienced similar to you. Have you seen any videos on YouTube by Douglas Bloch? I highly recommend you look him up. All the best to you ❤️

[JohnPB in reply to Hidden]

Thanks for the reply. I have been in in-patient about 10 times and out-patient several

times. Thanks for the info abut guy on Youtube.

[Hidden in reply to JohnPB]

You’re welcome, he’s awesome and speaks from experience.

[Hidden]

Hi john..everyday is a new day..it's what we do today that matters the most..i can't be of much more help as I'm not that good myself but hope you can take something from what I've said..I also hope and wish you get through..don't give up..we are all in this together and need each other...hang in there my friend..

[ashtonbeavers]

hi john, i’m always here for you if you need me. i’ve had depression and anxiety for almost 3 years. i’ve tried to kms but it didn’t work. i almost went into a coma but i was rushed to the er. but if you just need someone to help you , i’m here. also reading the bible, (especially the book of job) has helped me tremendously. i’ll be praying for you and if you need me i’ll be here

[Hidden]

You sound like me. I have a wonderful life and was so happy until about 15 months ago when I suffered a trauma. I have lost all motivation for living despite having the best husband and children on earth. I also can’t wait to go to bed at night however even then there is no peace as I have insomnia. Not sure what to do.