It's been awhile since the last post. I thought it was a good idea to take some time for myself and share time with family and friends and actually was.
If you can see me it seems I'm recovered but deep inside I'm the same miserable girl. I try to hide my pain to people cos I got to the point everybody was tired of the same story. I never believed I was gonna struggle so hard still do it!! On Wednesday is my birthday, I'm turning 24, I feel I'm getting old enough to make decision and make a life. If you still doubt it I still love like the first day to my ex. That feeling will never change but I need to learn how to live without him.
I've been trying to block the thoughts of the past that made me the happiest woman alive. I'm never gonna be the same girl of the last spring nor last summer. Almost a year ago I flew to Ireland to be with my love.
It is true that happiness lasts very little. Mine was so fast that I couldn't keep it!
Anyway, I've been reading so many books lately so I can get myself distracted of the misery of my life. People here think I'm happy and my life is amazing, but it isn't at all.
I'm so selfish that I don't want to share my life with anyone cos unfortunately there is the love of my life out there at the other side of the world having a good life without me! I'm dead since last December.
I have some plans next year I hope I can get everything ready till then. I hope everybody is having a good Sunday, personally I hate Sundays