My story

[Lolashra]

I recently failed an exam by a small margin for which I had prepared immensely and gave my 100%. Im a doctor by profession. So I'm a social person but I have only 1 friend since 3 years,kind of FWB. The others just came and went though I'm in the same college. I have a juju of losing friends every year. Been tired of feeling lonely and crying myself to sleep and being fake happy so that people don't realise. Anyone relates or has anything to help me?

[Hidden]

I don't have as many friends as I used to but I learn to live with it. I have family though.

I just keep myself occupied and now I'm happy with it. Just have to realise that people move on, you will make new friends on time I'm sure.

[Lolashra in reply to Hidden]

My family is really supportive. But just that my mom also suffers from generalised anxiety disorder so I don't want to burden her more with me too. I'm her happy buddy,want to keep it that way

[Vonnieruth]

You said your a doctor so you have connections withing your profession that you could ask professional help maybe Your clever person obviously

[Lolashra in reply to Vonnieruth]

Definitely. This is because I don't want them to look upon as their depressed collegue. Getting medicines is easier for me.

[Vonnieruth in reply to Lolashra]

Whole lot easier and you have a good source of help at hand Why would your colleagues think that of you What would you do as a doctor if someone came to you with same symptoms as yourself

[Lolashra in reply to Vonnieruth]

I'ma bad patient when it comes to medicines. I just feel like I need to talk to someone and sort it out. Putting out my feelings to my colleagues about my relationships will just add to my anxiety. Not everyone will react like me. Having expectations has already done a whole lot.

[Vonnieruth in reply to Lolashra]

Now your on about relationships It was lack of friendship earlier and failed exam As for exam your not alone many fail first time Surely talking about what is worrying you would be someone with in the hospital who doesn't know you as I assume you don't work in that speciality

[Lolashra in reply to Vonnieruth]

Relationship =friendship

I'm an intern. Everyone knows me. Exam stress I got over. I got a solution for the other problem too. Thank you for your help

[Vonnieruth in reply to Vonnieruth]

Have you not thought of online councilling Go to your own gp and speak to him about your feelings and emotions No need to involve work colleagues then

[Hidden]

I can relate, I have one friend and find it very hard to form friendships. I also have anxiety and depression. I have been going through major existential depression for the past year, and recently read Viktor Frankl book Mans Search for Meaning, I highly recommend it. What other activities are you interested in? It sounds like your identity is tied up a lot with your profession and maybe you feel lost about who you are?

[Lolashra]

My destress is seeing patient's happy and the way their near and dear ones care for them. I'm good with insight but I don't know do you ever feel lonely even though you aren't alone?