Why do I fear like I do?
As a child growing up; I never had a care or worry in the world. But, once college and adult life rolled around, things and situations and circumstances changed big time.
Fear came into my life...a lot of that was due to me putting a lot of "high expectations" on myself because I was the last of 9 grandchildren on my Dad's side and everyone else (including my brother) all had their 4-year college degrees or beyond and all I had at that time was my high school diploma. I felt like a failure and had no idea what I was going to do with my life...what was my purpose...what was my worth...who was I or who am I? At that time, my fear was of failing? And, later on in my life, I had dental issues and I had a fear of going to the dentist. I experienced a traumatic event in my life while my Grandmother was still living. She had a lot of choking problems and I remember witnessing them. Those images stuck in my mind and I never forgot them. As I got older, I remembered that traumatic time and I ended up with a fear of choking when I would eat my meals. That caused me to avoid eating...which was not easy. As a result, I ended up losing weight and that really scared me. About 3 years ago, I ended up in an Eating Disorder facility for a period of time. It gave me the support that I needed to help me physically, emotionally, and mentally. And, I thank God for the staff, doctors, and my many friends that I met there. Please never forget this....FEAR can be overcome. And, once you release that fear, that sense and feeling of freedom is like no other feeling in your life. God Bless You on your journey...Embrace Your Life and Embrace this Journey that God takes you on!!!