Im having a panic attack, need someone to talk to

[Julie98683]

im going numb I hate this feeling and nobody understands, my daughter just yelled at me and said I'm stupid and it's all in my head wtf

[Marshall64]

I'm here to listen. How old is your daughter?

[Julie98683 in reply to Marshall64]

23

[Julie98683 in reply to Julie98683]

I don’t Know how this works

[Julie98683 in reply to Julie98683]

I don’t Know how this works

[Julie98683 in reply to Julie98683]

Is this like a public forum

[Marshall64 in reply to Julie98683]

It is a forum where people join in to talk.

[Hidden in reply to Julie98683]

I am here if you want to talk

[Marshall64 in reply to Julie98683]

I have a 12 year old, I was curious. Why is she upset with you?

[Julie98683 in reply to Marshall64]

Because I’m having a panic attack right now and I can’t breathe

[Julie98683 in reply to Julie98683]

No one understands

[Marshall64 in reply to Julie98683]

I'm sorry that your daughter doesn't understand your panic attacks. It is not an uncommon complaint (for lack of a better word) that people, even ones close to us, don't understand and think we should "just get over it" or "suck it up". More importantly, are you okay? Do you do breathing exercises or meditations to dampen the severity of the attacks?

[Julie98683 in reply to Marshall64]

She gets anxiety but she’s never had a full-fledged panic attack where you go numb and tingle in your heart races and I had a bad day at work today because of some really bad that happened lately I’ve been down and depressed and my mind hasn’t really been there I’m sorry you had a bad day too I just can’t read at the moment needed someone to talk to and she yelled at me and said that I was a bad mom

[Marshall64 in reply to Julie98683]

I'm confused. Was she upset because you weren't there for her even though you were having a panic attack?

[Julie98683 in reply to Marshall64]

I went for a walk and I found the app on my iPhone so my mind is clearing now and I’m not in them and I can breath thank you so much for listening to me. They gave me this pamphlet at work and they sent me home early today because my mind wasn’t working right and I can’t make you stupid mistakes because it’s clogged with problems I thought I was looking for a counselor but this is better I think so what’s wrong with you Marshall 64 what kind of a day did you have

[Marshall64 in reply to Julie98683]

My day was okay. That is good that you asked though because helping others helps ourselves. I don't get panic attacks (I suffer from depression and some mild social anxiety) but I can listen. That gets me out of my head. 😊

[Hidden in reply to Julie98683]

You are NOT alone.......I feel that way a lot myself.....

Please NEVER forget...You are NOT and you are NEVER alone in this....there are people right there with you...either physically or the spirit is there with you.

[Julie98683 in reply to Hidden]

Hi I’m really sorry I am new at this I didn’t know we were all in the same conversation thank you so much for your words that’s going on with you are you having a bad day I am a really good listener I get a pretty good advice just not so good at taking my own.

[Hidden in reply to Julie98683]

I DO understand.....

[Hidden in reply to Julie98683]

Do you have something (an object or a stuffed animal) that you can look at or focus on to help calm down your breathing? Maybe if you look at that object or stuffed animal and just focus on that, it may help. I have done that before when I am anxious and that does help me.

[Julie98683 in reply to Hidden]

I’ve been through all the coping I do know how to cope with it the only thing is is my family doesn’t understand that it’s physical so Tgey may get upset with me and call me stupid tell me I’m weak. But they don’t know all live with nobody does and I don’t have any buddy to talk to you and I can’t believe I found this place I’m really not good with social stuff

[Julie98683 in reply to Hidden]

I know it’s stupid but when I am anxious if I’m not to the point where my eyes are tingling and I can see I like to make lists and I like to do art and I like to just write one word over and over again with lots of colors I guess I’m a kid at heart what do you do you

[Julie98683 in reply to Marshall64]

23

[Hidden in reply to Marshall64]

I am here to listen if you need to talk

[Marshall64 in reply to Hidden]

I don't know if you meant to reply to me but I'm good. Thanks for offering. 😊

[Julie98683 in reply to Marshall64]

No I’m not in counseling yet I’ve been many many times in the past the people at work gave me a pamphlet and I thought I was looking for a counselor but I found this so I’m not quite sure if I did it right but this is me I’ll try it for a while but I’ll still look for a counselor tomorrow if they don’t fire me and I still have insurance. The thing is going to counseling Before I never understood what was wrong with me because LHad a happy childhood I just never felt normal butI’m pretty sure I know what happened and I am normal I cried when I realized I was actually born normal and I thought it was a private chat I didn’t know it is it someone broke me a long time ago before I could even remember

[Julie98683 in reply to Marshall64]

OK let me clarify this one more time so the person above julester49 will see there is also going to conversation and anybody who comes in here Jon’s in like a group

[Julie98683]

I’ve been through all the coping I do know how to cope with it the only thing is is my family doesn’t understand that it’s physical so Tgey may get upset with me and call me stupid tell me I’m weak. But they don’t know all live with nobody does and I don’t have any buddy to talk to you and I can’t believe I found this place I’m really not good with social stuff

[Marshall64 in reply to Julie98683]

There are people here that do understand what you are going through. Do you go to counseling and if so, would your family be willing to go with you? Maybe they would get some insight if a professional could explain it to them.

[Julie98683 in reply to Marshall64]

Lol like I said I don’t understand these forum things. Is this one message?? Confusing

[Marshall64 in reply to Julie98683]

I don't know if I can explain it right but you create a post and people respond. You can reply in general in the dialog box or reply to a specific person's response by hitting the "reply". It is like one long thread. I hope I explained it okay.

[Julie98683 in reply to Julie98683]

Am I answering my own posts or do I just talk to much

[Julie98683 in reply to Marshall64]

No I’m not in counseling yet I’ve been many many times in the past the people at work gave me a pamphlet and I thought I was looking for a counselor but I found this so I’m not quite sure if I did it right but this is me I’ll try it for a while but I’ll still look for a counselor tomorrow if they don’t fire me and I still have insurance. The thing is going to counseling Before I never understood what was wrong with me because LHad a happy childhood I just never felt normal butI’m pretty sure I know what happened and I am normal I cried when I realized I was actually born normal andit is it someone broke me a long time ago before I could even remember

[Marshall64 in reply to Julie98683]

I had a good childhood but have suffered from depression since I was a teenager. Nothing happened; depression just runs in our family.

I asked about counseling because maybe your family would get a better understanding if they heard what you are going through by a professional.

[Julie98683 in reply to Marshall64]

You know I’m looking for a counselor right now but the thing is they think I am an alcoholic there two times a year that I drink and then my two triggerpoints birthday and the day that I watched her die and I get drunk well this July I really screwed up and I was in angry drunk and my 12-year-old son saw me and I don’t want him to grow up like that because my older to watch to me loser myself for two years after my mom died and that was 19 years ago is that too much information

[Marshall64 in reply to Julie98683]

That is not too much information. You have concerns. Try not to beat yourself up over one incident.

[Julie98683]

I know it’s stupid but when I am anxious if I’m not to the point where my eyes are tingling and I can see I like to make lists and I like to do art and I like to just write one word over and over again with lots of colors I guess I’m a kid at heart what do you do you