I have a hard time dealing with A & D at this age. I'm 66 and everyday life gets the best of me. I have lost interest in everything I do and I have found myself creating and inventing methods to kill myself. I need to find help. I don't want to spend time in an institution again as it only makes things worse. I'm not going to kill myself as I have tried 3 times and failed so I figure I need to learn how to deal with it.