I just want to live

[Espinoza38]

I had an awesome week off from work. And now today my right arm is hurting and I'm nauseous. I feel like something is stuck in my throat. I cant wait to go back to work I'm actually happy. But this pain has me thinking I'm a have a heart attack. I just want to live. That's it. I know its anxiety.

[Dallas197245]

I get that also. The nausea will last all day almost like I ate something bad and am going to get sick any minute. Hang in there.

[Espinoza38 in reply to Dallas197245]

So u also feel the arm pain and the feeling in the throat?

[Dallas197245 in reply to Espinoza38]

Constantly when I am anxious. I feel like my medicine or food is stuck in my throat and the arm pain has lead me to the ER many times out of fear.

[Espinoza38 in reply to Dallas197245]

What have they told you in the ER about the arm pain.

[Dallas197245 in reply to Espinoza38]

Anxiety. I saw a cardiologist and had a treadmill stress test and it was normal.

[Espinoza38 in reply to Dallas197245]

I've had all that done. Well the cardiologist told me that I dont need a stress test. But if I wanted one then I could get one. But I ended up in the ER a week ago and that doctor asked to get an echo done. Not because I have something but for my piece of mind.

[Priya6]

Hang in there my dear. I have the same feeling at work all the time. Xxx

[Espinoza38 in reply to Priya6]

I just dislike the feeling. All I want is to feel good and be at peace. That's it but who doesn't want that right.

[Priya6 in reply to Espinoza38]

Exactly. Me too. I really want it to go away and at least get some balance back. But its so hard. I cant even relax during my off time.

[Espinoza38 in reply to Priya6]

I was actually able to relax but for some reason I feel not so relaxed and I'm so sleepy. I woke up out of the blue and now cant seem to get back to sleep.

[Priya6 in reply to Espinoza38]

Try this track...Weightless by Marconi Union

[Ironj]

Hello Espinoza38

We chatted before and we both have health anxiety. My health anxiety started about 30 years ago I’m 47 now. My fear was I always thought I was having a heart attack and had 6 stress test done all normal. My health anxiety ended March of 2018 when I was told I had a real problem. I had diverticulitis and confirmed by a Ct scan. The scan showed I had a few enlarged lymph nodes. I had them biopsied and was told I have SLL lymphoma. Needless to say I fell to my knees. This type of lymphoma is very indolent ( slow growing ). In fact they don’t even treat it unless it because synthetic. I could go a decade or decades without treatment and 30% never need treatment. My point is I waisted 30 years of my life worrying about a fantom health anxiety that never harmed me. I know panic attacks suck but when I was told the news I stopped having panic attacks about my chest pains real quick. Now I research my SLL and even though it’s ( not the bad cancer ). Best wishes John

[Espinoza38 in reply to Ironj]

Wow. Just wow. And to be honest that's my fear. For me to be scared of this anxiety and for one day be told it's something really wrong. I'm sorry that they found something. So what do you do now? Do you just sit and wait? How are you feeling?

[Ironj in reply to Espinoza38]

I have no symptoms and feel fine. I went to Sloan Kettering in nyc for second opinion after seeing a local oncologist. This second opinion Dr is a specialist in SLL, they ran a bunch of test on me at the visit and everything came back very good. Most people that have this are on watch and monitor with Ct scans and blood work every 6 months. If treatment is ever needed it’s with a pill that’s 95% effective. The reason they don’t treat it is because people live symptom free for years or decades and some die from old age with it. I expressed my anxiety with the Dr and he said go live you life as if you don’t have anything wrong with you and we will just keep an eye on it. He went onto say you own a commercial roofing company your life expectancy could be one day if you fall of the roof 😁. It’s not a solid tumor cancer like Brest cancer it’s a chronic disorder that you live with kind of like high blood pressure. That all being said I have a lot of anxiety over it even though they told me not to. Ironically the worrying that I had of a heart attack are gone onto this now.