Aaarggghh

[Michael8072]

I can't stand the fact that I can't get out of this rut I'm in. That I've been in for so long. I see others out doing things that they love and or enjoy. Why can't I find that. I'm constantly racking my brain. Trying to figure out why im here. I'm sure there's a purpose. There's so much more I want to add into this post but I can't even put it into words. I feel it would just be gibberish or make no sense. I just

[Hidden]

It’s cool. I got what you are saying. Anxiety and depression can make us indecisive and make it hard to explain things. Don’t compare yourself to others. They might seem happy but trust me everyone has something going on. Are you getting treatment for anxiety or depression?

[Michael8072 in reply to Hidden]

I wish I could find my drive or ambition for life but I can't seem to find it yet. Like I want to start living and doing but instead I find myself stuck. I'm seeing a psychologist. She's trying to help. At least I'm trying to open up more. So it's a start. I only see her once a month though. I just don't want to keep things in anymore. I agree I'm not trying to compare my life to others I know everyone is going through their own journey. I just wish I could get out more then I do and live life. But I get in my own way. Thanks for listening.

[dee_bells]

I know what you mean. I've been in a rut for so looonnnggg.

I stay inside because it's my comfort zone. But once I'm outside, it's fabulous. It's a struggle.

Give it a try. Take one step outside. I'm telling you this and I actually should do this for me as well. You can do it.

[Michael8072 in reply to dee_bells]

Thank you. I do go outside and talk walks some days and then other days i find it hard to. Even though I want to. But I wanna do so much more but I have no drive or ambition and can't seem to find one. And it hurts me day in and day out. I'm the one that gets in my own way. I'm working on it. It's just a slow process and I just wish it wasn't.