I think my mind plays tricks on me at me at times cause I swear I was doing just fine. I go to therapy, I try to talk about what went on for the time I wasn’t in therapy but I always leave there feeling like I’m sugar coating everything knowing that when I get home and go through my day to to day after that I’m stressed and overwhelmed and feeling inadequate! This life isn’t mine! Or at least it can’t be, I’m tired of working at a place where I have to be “ON” all the time, like a person can’t be tired, can’t be feeling run down and just has to show up happy when I’m not. I’m in school as well and even that is tiring, cause I don’t feel like I’m giving it my all. I’m giving 100% of myself to a place that I am at for 12+ hours a day, just to have money to have no time to do anything with it! Then going home just in time to get adequate sleep if my anxiety lets me, leaving me to fit school in, something that is going to get me to my career and what I love, when I can. It’s just mind boggling and makes zero sense. I am apartment hunting as well, and how I get that in, idk! But all of this is making my anxiety triple! I am starting to despise coming to work and going home, both of which are someone else’s house and not having ANY time for myself! But then again this is life and I guess I have to deal with it but I feel myself breaking down.