I feel alone

[inkblotch]

My depression had gotten better last year. I was smiling, I did some traveling, and even put on some weight and didn’t mind it. I never thought I would be able to wake up and simply feel joy at the thought of being me. But I did and it was my reality for a few months. It’s been coming back since January. I hit my all time low this past Thursday night. I’ve been going about as normal at work and home. No one knows. Nothing has recently changed or happened for me to feel this way. I feel very alone and empty.

[fauxartist]

I'm sorry your going through the low end of this stuff, depression is like that unfortunately....it's an emotional roller coaster, and because it's chemical...there is no reason to feel depressed...it's just your low end of the depression. I don't know if you've been diagnosed...and are taking meds. or choose not to take them. But when we hit those lows...it sucks...and for those that don't understand depression...they think there needs to be a reason...nope...your just sad. I personally take an antidepressant, it levels out the highs and lows...but does not completely eliminate them. I just recognise that this is just me and cope the best I can.

[inkblotch in reply to fauxartist]

Thank you so much for replying.

I was taking antidepressants, but because I had gotten better last year I stopped taking them.

Knowing there’s someone out there who is going through something similar and understand really helps me feel less alone. Thank you.

[Sprinkle1]

You have my empathy. Depression is a wicked illness to have, it tags along with panic, fear, anxiety, hopefully you have not had those. I understand your feeling of empty and alone, I get those feelings. I started on an antidepressant in the 80's got feeling better, so weened myself of off them. Ignorant me, after a while the depression came back. Once on these little buggers it is best to keep taking them, it keeps the brain in balance. I will be your friend if you want someone to chat with, I am going thru the test right now, it really makes me miserable, I have no one close by to talk to, and most people do not understand. So I keep to myself and try to get myself thru these spells with the help of my Psych. Dr. Sometimes one has to change to a different brand of antidepressant to get back to a balanced life. I wish you well, send you love and internet company with Hugs and Peace. Sprinkle 1..........

[inkblotch in reply to Sprinkle1]

Thank you so much Sprinkle. I woke up today definitely feeling less alone and knowing I put my thoughts somewhere out there. Thank you for your advice. I have been thinking about going back to get more antidepressants but I fear becoming dependent of them. I’m sorry to hear you are also going through this alone. I hope to hear more from you and definitely talk to you more :). I wish you well.

[Sprinkle1]

Hello New Friend, I am going thru it and it is bad. I am older and so the body is more decrepit and does not function as well as it once did. I want to ask you Not to be afraid of taking an antidepressant, they are chemicals that the body normally makes and we need them. We do not become addicted. After I had weened myself off them years ago, my Dr. (being a wise lady), asked me if I would take insulin if I were diabetic/take heart medicine if I needed it, my answer a definite YES. So I have taken them ever since, my problem is I have built up a tolerance and have to be switched to another make, and this is not easy, the chemical make up is different in each brand. I do not mean to frighten you, just reassure you, I have a friend who has been on Prozac for over 30 years and is just fine. Like you, I live by myself so I have no one to talk to, and have no family here, I came from England years ago, so my brother and other relatives live 3000 miles away. I would be happy to give you support and encouragement. Hand in there sister, I am with you in spirit. Sprinkle 1..xxx

[inkblotch in reply to Sprinkle1]

Thank you so much Sprinkle. We are all in this long journey together and hence pick each other up in the process. I will be making an appointment to make sure I get an antidepressant that fits me best.

[Sprinkle1]

I think you are doing the right thing for yourself, please remember to stay with it, there is no disgrace in being depressed, I think of it as taking a vitamin each day, after all we need the B Vitamins for our brain, along with D, and some others Fish oil, etc. You could ask your Dr. I wish you well. Sending Love & Hugs. Peace and No fear. Sprinkle 1 ......xxx