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I want to just go back to drinking because now I get to feel everything I was numbing in the first place never knew it could be this hard and my anxiety and depression is through the roof I feel so disconnected right now couldn’t sleep last night my mind is so blank and am just in bed and don’t want to get out of bed and don’t feel like eating and I don’t want to go out I just want to lock myself up in my room forever and be left alone am hoping this feeling past very soon

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Congratulations on being 2 days sober. Are you going to Alcoholics Anonymous? If not, I would strongly recommend it. There are people there just like you. It will get you out of the house and you will meet people that will welcome you. It's not easy to quit drinking without some support. Drinking alcohol plays havoc with your nervous system, so you're going through physical withdrawal right now. You can find a meeting almost anywhere. You got this.... don't despair! I wish you the best of luck - it's not easy, but it's totally worth it. oxox

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tamka38 in reply to Maxiomargie

Awwwww thank you

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tamka38 in reply to Maxiomargie

I want to start going to AA

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fauxartist in reply to tamka38

yes do....it's not everybody's cup of tea, but for now it can work to help you get sober, it's not a cult either, just a bunch of drunks wanting to live life clean and sober. And who better to help you stay sober than someone who understands the addiction. Go...get a sponsor, get a list of phone numbers who you can call when your slipping...do it for yourself...you deserve to be happy...

Please take care of yourself, going back to drinking isn't the answer, I know this as my alcoholic son lives with me, just got out of the hospital last week, was told he has the start of liver cancer & if he doesn't stop he is looking at 3-4 years of life left. He has not stopped drinking & I'm so scared for him. You my dear are worth a lot , to me too!!! Love & hugs! XXX

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tamka38 in reply to

Sorry to hear that about your son how old is he? Am trying my best to stop

He is only 38! Not looking forward to burying him, yet he won't listen, maybe i can help you then! Love & hugs!!!

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Am 41 and I really want to stop for good

No AA and trying to get in with a therapist

I'm here for you! Anytime you need to talk , i will listen. If you'd like to private message me that would be fine! I would feel honored to help get you through this ugly, dark time that you are dealing with! I believe you can do this! Remember the mind is a very powerful place, you put your mind to this and you will succeed! Wishing you all the best!!! Love & peace! Big hug for you too! XXX

congrats on the two days, but you shouldn't be trying to do this without a support system and under a doctors supervision if you already have issues with depression. I could not stay sober by myself in the beginning...it takes more than most people have to do it alone at first.

What are you doing for support....

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tamka38 in reply to fauxartist

I don’t have no support alcohol makes depression and anxiety worse am just use to self medicating and numbing my feelings for years

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Leenilou in reply to tamka38

Me too. I’ll listen and try to help. You are so worth it.

I’ve gone back and forth and am not one to really talk, but I can say that when you do stop each day gets easier, and then you start to feel good, and then you start to think you’re okay and can handle drinking better this time. That’s the hardest for me.

Try to get through another day and then see how you feel. Better? Not better yet? It actually gets better pretty fast (and I have depression and anxiety). Once you get there make a plan for not starting up again. That’s what I’m trying, anyway. I’ve never been to AA because I hate going out, but if talking helps we could talk, support each other. I drink to avoid feeling terrible about everything for a few hours, but always regret it the next day. When I don’t drink, I usually have a pretty good day the next day. I can see the pattern now, but seeing it is only half the battle. My husband and I are so done, after being together from 19 to 53. He drinks more than me, way more, but thinks he’s never let it affect our family and I have. We are just both angry and hurt but can’t break down the walls or agree on anything. So I drink to forget.

Whatever your reasons, know that they aren’t just excuses. We all have to cope and don’t all have ways that are helpful. We are all scared. Try to love and forgive yourself, and hold yourself dear. And don’t be ashamed. Shame is the worst.

One thing that sometimes helps me (I read about it a few months ago) is to try to find my inner self, the person I knew myself to be as a child, and show her love, as you would your own small child. She needs it, she is still there, and it is harsh to be anything but compassionate and affirming to her. She is you, minus the choices and circumstances that have intervened through time. Find her and you may find some joy. And by finding joy you heal; it’s an elixir better than alcohol. It just takes more work at first.

Hang in there and write anytime. Let’s fight this good fight.

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tamka38 in reply to Leenilou

Awwwwww thank u for your kind words I really needed to hear that and I use to listen Louis hay on YouTube she talks about your inner self

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Leenilou in reply to tamka38

Going to check her out. Fighting the urge to go get a bottle of red wine right now. But then I looked at the clock and it’s already 8 and I can definitely skip it tonight and just keep identifying with others who are struggling too. Hope you get some peace tonight and wake up feeling better. Even when you don’t think you’re sleeping I think most of us doze and rest and heal. Try some music or a yoga nidra?

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tamka38 in reply to Leenilou

U right about because last night was rough

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tamka38 in reply to Leenilou

My body hurts my ears hurts my throat hurts I can’t sleep I have the chills

We are not alcoholics or addicts. All to often the focus becomes that we are flawed because we turn to a drug when we can’t turn to ourselves for comfort. At night we just want peace and find difficulties with this because the focus becomes centered around being flawed. It a spiritual issue. This can be worked through. Early on we have to focus on be true to our feelings. We have to keep the focus on us. In relationships we have to focus on taking care of us. Most of all just don’t drink. There will be countless excuses to drink all of which are just excuses. Each time the thought of drinking arises accept it, don’t drink and build a positive history. Not drinking for one day is great. Things will get better as the days pass. 👏👏👏

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tamka38 in reply to Rpan

Ok thank you

You could be going through withdrawal. (I went through it about a month ago). Depression, and anxiety are early symptoms and sometimes the only symptoms. However, there also are possible life threatening symptoms. Just in case, check out withdrawal symptoms on the internet and if you get any of the more advanced symptoms, seek medical attention.

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tamka38 in reply to woodtick

How bad did it get for you?

Everything bit the seisures.

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tamka38 in reply to woodtick

Me too

Congrats! IT GETS EASIER. Sober 4 years here. Anxiety is still a struggle but my life is manageable. Are you in AA or any support groups?

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tamka38 in reply to Stumblety

No support and thank you

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tamka38 in reply to Stumblety

Is my 3day getting clean and is hard feel like am going to pass out or have a panic attack I feel dizzy or my head Spaning

If you go to AA and I hope you do. Their are several books that they have that have really helped me. The Big Book,Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions are just a couple, oh and The Little Red Book. They we'll tell you about what they went through and what they did to get sober. Great Great books! I hope you go!! Hang in there!!

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