Hi, I'm new here. I am 31 and suffer from anxiety and depression. I thought I would join to see how other people get through their days and keep a job . I have major social anxiety , which means I literally have zero friends, and I can't keep a job because of my anxiousness. I do have a bf of 7 years but he's been getting tired of me not being able to hold a job for the past 3 years and does not understand my huge fear of driving. I don't own a car anymore as of 1 year ago (it broke down) but I did drive in the past, but only because I had to and I would avoid freeways/highways even if it meant it would take an hour to get home. I live in the country now , so I don't live near anywhere I could walk to work and there's no bus service here. I cannot drive his SUV because it's probably one of the biggest SUVs you can own and you know.. I'd probably die driving it from a heart attack with how bad my anxiety is (alil over-exaggerated but you know...). Anyway, I asked him if he could drive me places to find a job and he hasn't yet but complains at me every.single.day and I feel hopeless! I applied to places online and haven't heard back from them and my bf says that's not good enough and that I need to go out and find a job and spend my days more useful. I'm so frustrated and feel like I'm digging back into my depression because I don't know what to do. I feel so worthless and a burden on him.