Isolation

[Oz4Life]

Hello, I am new here. Been dealing w/depression for probably 15 yrs. when I'm feeling low I isolate. No energy, no motivation. Nobody understands.

[jkl5500]

The people here will understand. Are you being treated for your depression?

[Oz4Life in reply to jkl5500]

I take cymbalta now. My awesome therapist retired about two years ago. I have not found another one yet. This afternoon when my hubs got home from work he insisted we go out to dinner to get me out of the house. I really needed that. He listens to me but I don't like to complain too much.

[sparkle314 in reply to Oz4Life]

I know what you mean about complaining too much but sometimes when you’re hurting you have to let those things out, wether it’s talking to your husband or just writing it down, talking about your feelings doesn’t have to be complaining. I also know what you mean by nobody understanding bc that’s how I’ve always felt, but I think I make myself believe that bc I myself don’t even understand <3

[jkl5500]

You really need to get back into treatment. You're welcome to say what's bothering you on this forum. It's good that your husband tries to understand, but it's tough to do when he hasn't been through it.

[ferris2424]

I understand and can only agree with getting treatment. It is the path towards a more balanced life.

[SamuelBlake17]

This is me☹️. I don’t talk about my depression with friends because I feel like who wants to listen to someone that is down. Life is hard enough so who wants to hear other people’s problems. I know friends will be there for you but I guess I feel like I wouldn’t want to b my friend. So many people don’t understand because I cancel last minute if I don’t feel like going out so I’m not dependable.

My husband used to help me to get out of the house but I think he’s given up. Plus it’s more difficult with a child to care for. Sounds like you have a great supportive husband. I have tried so many counselors, it’s tough to find a good one and it gets tiring explaining yourself over and over to different people.

I hope you find the right meds and counselor.

[gogogirl in reply to SamuelBlake17]

How about a support group like NAMI? Also, it sounds like you're a bit isolated perhaps in a temporary situation.

[Oz4Life in reply to gogogirl]

What is NAMI?

[gogogirl in reply to Oz4Life]

National Alliance on Mental Illness

[gogogirl]

People here understand - I know I do. What are you doing to address this?

[SamuelBlake17 in reply to gogogirl]

I am going to see my med person today but I really don’t want to try another med. I am also going to try another counselor for the 5th time. I kind of have come to the conclusion that this is me and nothing is going to change as I’ve had anxiety and depression for at least 25 years. I do have to admit it’s getting worse and if I didn’t have my daughter I would love to leave this life as I get no enjoyment out of it. I have great friends surpringly and feel great being around them and at the same time feel awful because they are who I want to be. I don’t change to who I want to be, it takes too much effort. I feel like I don’t have the strength or energy to because the first thing I think of when I leave work is going to rest in bed. I never call anyone to see how they are doing and that makes me sad. My great uncle who I love to pieces is now in assisted living, I don’t go visit him when I could but I’d rather be in bed. I don’t think I would ever commit suicide but I can understand why people do. I couldn’t understand it before but I do now. Mental illness is awful because there is no cure and meds don’t work great, and has side effects.

I need to get back to the gym but not motivated to go. I know that would help me.

[sosplz]

I understand, I don't even want to read texts from my friends much less see them at school. I spend most of my days in my room or in my office away from other people. This is not very healthy.